Week 945
Day 6609 - 8/5 - So tired
Today I am completely exhausted. I lost most of my sleep, getting barely half of what it could have been. My throat is rough as hell too, which I don't know if that's somehow due to the lost sleep or if that's because I'm sick and that sick caused the lost sleep.
My brain isn't working. I had a terrible bathroom emergency. In many ways it wasn't a good day, but I suppose really it was ok.
Day 6610 - 8/6 - Tired and rough
Today I am still extremely tired. I don't know how many nights in a row now, but last night I probably lost another 1/3 of what should have been sleep. And my throat is still completely torn up. I can't talk normally at all. It sounds bad and I'm clearing it quite a bit due to congestion. It seems weird because I certainly don't remember anyone being close to me that sounded sick.
I guess overall today was ok other than these things, but they certainly put a big damper on things.
Day 6611 - 8/7 - Still so tired
Today I was still so tired. I guess things weren't as bad last night and I maybe got 5-6 hours of sleep. So a little lost, but not as much as it has been lately.
My throat is still rough and completely wrecked for some reason. I'm drinking about 20-40% more than normal, probably to try and soothe it. I should maybe see if I still have drops. I guess the day wasn't bad, but I was still too out of it to focus and be productive.
Day 6612 - 8/8 - Wandering
Today my brain wandered a lot. I did do my MMO time in the morning, but I didn't really feel like playing anything after. So most of the day my brain wandered and I watched a lot of random history and lore videos.
I suppose I can't focus and am not interested in my regular routine due to my brain spirals. Knowing my brain it will be a bit before I can let the mystery of dad fully go. But I guess it's still floating in the back of my mind quite a bit and it bounces to the front when I think about things like my birthday coming up in about 1.5 weeks. I think of the mystery, think of me, and wonder if someday, maybe sooner than not with how much time I've been in a sad and terrible spot; will I too be gone and only a mystery of how and when I reached my end remain?
Day 6613 - 8/9 - Still sore back
Today my back is still a bit stiff and sore. It's not anywhere near as bad as it was, but I'm still surprised it's a bit sore after what feels like a long time. I think it's setting off my feet and hips too, or the other way around, I'm not sure. I seem to have a shortened tolerance for walking lately. I haven't done my little extra walk in what feels like a week due to my extra sore back and hips lately.
I guess I'm ok. I still feel a bit sick with sniffles, rare sneezing, and a still rough throat. It's mostly cleared up though, so that is good. I have a bit of a headache though, and while I finally got a full night's sleep last night I'm still very tired and unable to focus overall.
Day 6614 - 8/10 - Maybe Monday
Today maybe I can get back to more normal homeless activities. Hopefully I'll be mostly recovered from this cold, my back pains, and feeling overly tired. My bad eye floater is finally very reduced, maybe 15% as bad as it once was. My overall vision blurriness is still there, so I still wonder if maybe my prescription is off in general. I may ask at the next poking if they can check that really quickly to verify things. I expect they would say no though because that is usually like 30 minutes on its own, which wouldn't be extra time they would be likely to have. But hopefully I can feel emotionally and physically closer to my homeless normal today. I've been pretty far off, especially with all of the dad mystery.
Day 6615 - 8/11 - Maybe just a Tuesday
Today I don't know what to expect. I've been off a lot lately both physically and emotionally. Hopefully things will get back to more normal levels or at least closer to a new balance point, since in a way we are always shifting and changing and becoming more of who we once were or more of someone we have yet to become.
