My favorite holiday is again spent homeless. Things are super sad, but a donation came and that allows me to sign up for a class and have things looking normal again.

This week things are shaken up with a power outage, the beginnnig of the end of classes, and a visit to help someone with a project in their home which I was alergic to.

This week I get an unexpected break and have fun playing; a rare thing these days. But overall I continue to feel more and more stressed about the coming bills that I am currently unable to pay.

This week my mind still dwells on the big bills I have coming up, and I worry if this will be the time I can't pay them. I barely made it through last cycle around this time of year, and with fewer seeming to watch out for me, paying for all the things that need to be paid seems unlikely.

I played in the second beta weekend for The Division. Nearly everything thing that was locked before was again locked. And after seeing some high level game play I feel very concerned that people are going to burn out on the game very quickly. Again I recommend caution and suggest people wait and see what reviewers think about a week after launch.

I continue to try to hang on. But with fewer and fewer donations I am unable to pay for the critical needs. With nothing extra I have nothing to look forward to, leaving me feeling like there is no future for me.

With things beginning to look very bleak I continue to try to hang on to hope.

I had some gift certificate monies left, so I was able to see two movies that I've really been wanting to see which are Deadpool and Zoolander 2. One I thought was awesome, while I found the other quite disappointing.

Things feel very sad lately. Again it feels like there is nothing I can look forward to due to lack of money, and again I feel like what little is left will be lost.

The otherwise good news of finding my food stamp money continuing is shattered by a bad day in the shower, and my replacement laptop power brick suddenly dying.

Focusing on just today has helped with feeling broken hearted, but each day I get closer and closer to nothing.

The Warcraft movie looks incredible. It looks like it will have a very deep and emotional story of a struggle between two people. However, with lore as rich and deep that it's drawing on, I wonder if the movie will come off as epic as the lore, or if it will just seem shallow and uninteresting.

The struggle with feeling broken hearted continues.

All the nice things lately help me hang on, but this week I am feeling very broken hearted and homesick.

Still getting over my cold. School starts up and things get busy busy busy.

The new year is just starting, and the sad vacation time is over and school is open again. I don't know what this year will bring. Currently things seem set to rapidly spiral down and be worse than ever. But I try to hang on to hope, as I do with all times of change.

Donations and gifts come and I am spared. But it seems like I may only be spared for the moment, as there is not enough to cover all the critical costs and have enough for gas too. One or two things must go unpaid. As the days and nights grow colder, my future still looks dim.

Things start with amazing Xmas gifts, but quickly turn to sadness as I'm forced to begin my time at the library earlier than expected, and gas seems like it won't last and I'll be on foot from now on in extreme cold and rainy weather.

I also got a few smaller indie games to cheer me up; AaAaAA!!! and The Wonderful End of the World.

Things start to seem extra sad with the closing of school. Even though there is some good news about being inside during the break, it seems there is less and less for me to celebrate each year.

A big donation comes, allowing me to sign up for school. But with so many other things needing attention, and the increasing cold, with the upcoming holiday closing time at school, things start to seem extra sad.

The scare from my car battery begins to fade, but more worry surfaces as I get notice my benefits for food are running out and I have to go in to renew the application. The long weekend holiday seems like forever, and reminds me of happier, and sadder, times, and I worry things may just continue to get worse as donations and help slow.

Last Friday the car failed to start. It is apparently a fixable issue if I can replace the battery. Someone helped by sending one, and it should be here sometime today, so I remain hopeful.

Worry continues to return as funds are reaching zero, and things are needing attention.

Spirits are lifted with a super nice donation and gifts, yet by the end of the week the weather grows cold, the money is used up, and worry returns.

This week there are many reminders of better days, and things seem to end on a very low note.

This week many sad things make me feel like I am again losing hope. I continue to try and hang on until help comes and I see better days.

I finally get my phone set up. Since there were no numbers left in my local area I picked one from the 818 area code; Van Nuys, which is near LA. It is funny to think my phone is from the future me, one who is doing voice work and happily living in the LA area. In an odd way, it feels like a first real step towards that, though in reality I am no closer to it actually happening.

Ups and downs this week. With the new hoodie and new boots many of my reminders of my sad life are gone, but other struggles return to remind me how far I've fallen and that who I was may never be able to return, and that me may be just a fading memory.

This week is full of surprises; My PlayStation account seems unbanned, my Destiny characters appear intact, and more importantly someone donated both a new hoodie, and new boots. Things seem to be moving in a direction I will be better able to heal from my sad times.

In the news I talk very briefly about Heroes Reborn (2015) and Minority Report (2015).

Classes begin and shift. My car overheating issue may be resolved.

Gray winter time weather turns to super hot. I start work on the friend's project. Excitement for school starting builds.

In surprise news school is open on Fridays now. And, due to increasing frustration and worry about my power supply I get a new one, and with that many of my concerns about issues with my laptop disappear.

Monster Loves You! is something I'd define as an interactive storybook in a choose your own adventure style. You play a monster, and are given a story with choices that happen while the monster is growing up. Your choices determine your stats, and the stats help you in later stages of the game to succeed at various challenges. Along the way you build up, or do not build up, a rapport with other monsters and humans, and based on who likes whom at the end you receive one of 14 possible outcomes to the story. Again, this would be a good one for probably younglings in the 8-teen age range, as it is basically an interactive storybook.

I've gotten a bit further in Wolfenstein: The Old Blood and have some more thoughts on an odd turn in the gameplay of the game.

The trees at school have been cut down. The loss of the trees and many critter homes makes me very sad.

What I thought would be a sad farewell to my spot inside at school turns out to not be. News of a possible one shot job comes up, but looks like it won't happen until next week.

What We Do in the Shadows (2014) is a mocumentary style comedy about four vampires who are waning in power who are living together. They are older vampires who don't really get modern times, so there is a lot of humor about that. And at the end of the first act a new vampire is made who does get modern stuff, but is very bad at being a vampire, so there's a lot of humor about his bringing the old vampires into the modern world, as well as things which go badly because he's a new vampire. If you are into supernatural comedy this is one you won't want to miss.

Where has the music gone? What are these new bumpers about? Why have I been doing this podcast, and why it's always been my own different thing.

My birthday morning, and the morning after, is ruined with unexpected stress and arguing. However, in good news there were enough b-day gifts and donations to get me enough to sign up for classes, reserve enough to cover a parking sticker for the quarter, and even have enough for a bit of gas and to consider looking into getting a new super low pay as I go phone set up.

Both games are free to download and play, so if either peaks your interest you might want to give them a look.

Lately more and more I feel like I won't be able to recover without extraordinary help, and it seems as time goes on that help seems less and less likely to happen, and I feel more alone and helpless with each passing day.

With no donations for a long time things continue to be desperate and on the edge of oblivion.

Things begin to settle from the bank chaos. While I continue to recover and try and stay hopeful, things still remain unknown with my possible banning.

New worries come with an auto renewal of something I didn't request, threatening to overdraw my account. The bank said they will refuse that charge, but as a result I may lose my PlayStation account, which holds my Destiny data, game, and Dying Light.

I begin to settle in to my new life in my new world, but when I am not there I am still very sad, very worried, and wonder how much I've lost will never be recovered.

This week has a lot of emotional pain. Through much of the week I worry if I can be saved and get enough donations for registration and smog. I finally get it, and get a donation of a game. But when I did the smog this morning the car was overheating and didn't pass. I am set to go back in the evening and see if it can be cleared, but so far year 8 has not been a very hopeful start.

Update 6:30 PST; an update has been done to talk about today's evening.

Year 8 has begun, and it seems I may rapidly lose what little is left. With no income I am completely dependent on donations to keep things running, most notably my car. But it seems they are getting fewer and fewer. It would only take $10 in gas a week, and $100 for my registration (due before three weeks from now) to keep me safe, but with no donations in nearly a month (save for my Patreon supporters), it seems like I may be forced to sell my car. And if that happens I don't see how I'd ever recover.

At the end of this year of fail things feel worse than ever. While a few have sent donations lately, it seems no more are coming. With a now overdue phone bill, and car registration just around the corner in a few weeks, it seems my end may be near, and that the next year of fail will be the year I lose what little is left.

This week I am feeling sick and dazed. I caught a cold last week and it has been lingering. Lack of sleep has me feeling dazed and confused most of the time. And when I'm not, I'm very worried, as my resources are again reaching zero.

I also talk about Fallout Shelter, which I tried to play on my iPhone but it kept crashing, so I only have a few thoughts on it. It's a fun free to play base building game set in the Fallout universe.

Things are still very sad, but this week a few surprises change things up a bit.

Terribly depressed most of this week, possibly the worst and most worried ever. In the last few days I am spared, and hope is renewed, at least for the moment.

Things continue to be terrible, and seemingly continue to get worse. More and more I worry that soon I will be left with nothing at all.

I talk a bit more about the new Destiny: House of Wolves content.

The iOS game I mentioned last podcast was called Crossy Road and I give a very brief review. It's a cute game where you are trying to get across a very dangerous and busy road.

Mostly a low week filled with lots of emotional pain, and at the start of the fail week lots of physical pain. There is a brief moment of surprise at how people reacted to my project for class, but emotions quickly sink again as I have nothing to do but wait during the long weekend.

Another week of fail has come and gone. A few donations came and have spared me for another week, but with so few I am constantly on the edge and worry.

Wedding Escape is a bit of a twist on the traditional 'match three' type game in that you can't move tiles, but instead flip them. It's a very interesting take on a genera which had become quite stale and repetitive.

While the initial recent boost of help two weeks ago spared me, that money has now run out and I am again on the edge of nothing with seemingly no more help on the way. Even though I know there are a few new and old people out there who do care about me, the more time that passes that I don't get a little support each month to make it through, the more and more heartbroken I get, and the less and less likely it seems I will make it out without something truly extraordinary and unexpected happening.

This week started very sad, but I got some donations, so things quickly looked up a bit. I paid the overdue phone bill and have a bit left for gas. I feel a bit better knowing there are more people out there concerned for me and hoping that I recover, but it is still difficult not to be sad about all the things I miss.

It seems the bigger reason my iOS games have been more and more difficult to play is not the age of the phone, but the phone in various states of death.

With more wear and tear and breaking down in the eight months I've had it, compared to the like 2-3 years I've had my PC headphones, I give a serious look and re-evaluation of the PlayStation Gold headset.

Life continues to be terrible. My phone bill is now overdue. Barely any gas is left in my car. I have no money for anything, and it seems no help from donations is to be expected.

Clean laundry and increasing worry and stress over having no money and yet another month's bills coming up.

Daredevil (2015-) is based on the comic of the same name and is a NetFlix exclusive. The first season explores the origins of Daredevil as well as Kingpin. There's quite a bit of action, but there is also a good amount of detective work and exploration about greater plots of crime against the city.

This week I feel weird and sad, possibly because of another semester starting. I get clear test results from my blood check. I share some lunch with tiny ants.

The Quest Keeper is a charming and fairly simple game for mobile. You guide an adventurer along a flat plane, while swiping to avoid literal pitfalls and traps.

Corridor Z is a different take on endless runners in that you are running towards the screen, creating a higher sense of tension and urgency.

A horrible relapse keeps me sick for several days. Bunny day without being able to be a bunny to anyone makes me very very sad.