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Epic Fail: The Journal of a Homeless Gamer
Book 11: It Goes to Eleven

This is my journal I wrote during the time I was homeless. It is broken up by week for easier reading. Feel free to read it on the web or download the complete .pdf version and print it for reading offline.


Week 571

Day 3991 - 6/5 - Weird bathroom guy

Today I noticed someone being super weird. I've noticed a guy for about a week, maybe two, has been going into the bathroom on my floor and staying for a really long time. Like hours. Today I tracked the time, and when I'd left he had been in that one stall in the bathroom for more than three solid hours. Now, like 30 minutes, maybe a bit more, and you might think they are doing something naughty. Odd, but not unheard of. But this guy was in there doing who knows what. Eventually I heard him watching videos and he'd pulled his pants up? But why? It makes no sense. There are only one or two classes on the entire floor at that time. And there are a half dozen padded benches that are very comfortable all over the hall floor. Why sit where people do nasty stinky business when you could be out on a comfy seat? Many right next to a power outlet. It made zero sense. I guess it's harmless, but I can't help but wonder if I should report it to campus security because it's kind of shady. That is nowhere near the realm of normal. And this is on a floor where people sometimes do super weird things like run around smeared in paint, or without pants on (for various video projects).

I guess the day was ok. It was a day 'off'. I checked job search results in the morning, but most of the day I spent playing games and watching a few shows. It was pretty relaxing I guess, as it was mostly a trouble free connection.

Tomorrow is TAing all day, but I think probably 50% or more of the time I'll be free to half pay attention and play my game while lecture is going on, so I should be able to have fun tomorrow too.

I'm still extremely tired feeling. I feel like I haven't slept in days. The unusually warm weather did keep me up a few hours last night, but I actually slept well, so it must still be overall exhaustion or an issue related to my bad blood pressure. I feel like I can barely keep my eyes open much of the time. There were no donations today, so I am still extremely worried about overdue insurance and the upcoming registration. But all I can do is try to rest when I can, try to continue hoping help and donations come in time, and try to hang on until better days.

Day 3992 - 6/6 - Chilly

Today I was kind of chilly, which is odd because it seemed super warm and sunny. The classroom temperature showed 70-72F on it's gauge, so it should have been fine. Maybe I have a low level cold, which might explain the exhaustion and extreme hunger.

The school connection was garbage. Which is odd as it was strong, stable, and smooth up until 11:30 AM, at which point it was like someone flipped a switch and it basically stopped dead. From 11:30-4 I spent about 85% of the time trying to play. From 4 on it was better, but still stuck several times an hour causing me to lose probably 30-40% of my play time. Thankfully by 7 when my live show was starting it seemed clear again. I guess it was ok though, as I completed about everything I wanted by the time it started going bad in the morning. What I did after was almost all extra, but it would have been a lot nicer to not have been locking up.

I guess overall the day was ok, and I hung on and made it through. I got a few super nice in-game items from my in-game friend who sends donations, so that put it me in an extra good mood. So I try to remain hopeful help and donations come to pay the bills in time. And hopefully I can hang on until then.

Day 3993 - 6/7 - Special thing

Today I did the special thing I've been trying to do in my MMO. It was really a first step though. To get the stuff I want I'd need to probably do it another 8-10 times at a minimum if I got at least one piece of gear I can per run, which is unlikely. So I again wonder if I reaaaly want that gear since it's really a cycle. To do raids you need raid gear, but if you won't be raiding (which my sad life basically prevents) then you don't need the gear because you won't be raiding. There is sooooo much to do I might just stick to the easier and more fun and accessible things. Probably tomorrow and Saturday I won't have a lot of choice, as the extremely low bandwidth at the library will limit what I can do.

It's supposed to be super hot Sunday and Monday, up to 90F, yet today it was chillier than it's been in a week. I took off my shorts, as I knew the library would be like a fridge from noon on, but in the evening when I was leaving I was chilly, and the sky was pretty gray most of the day. So I wonder if the weather prediction was wrong.

I guess the next few days are what they are. I can control extremely little. But I try to have fun with my game and my shows. And I try to hang on and hope donations come in time to pay the bills. And I try to hang on to hope in the meantime.

Day 3994 - 6/8 - Shower with towels

Today started differently. My towels were all pretty bad, so I took the three smaller ones into the shower with me to rinse them out, then drop them in the dryer with several dryer sheets. It... sort of helped. They don't smell intolerable anymore, though they most certainly don't smell clean. They will probably work for a few showers each until they go bad, so that may last through the rest of the school quarter. After that I will be in the library for the summer and my smell won't quite be as important because people won't be close enough, nor around me enough, to really notice. My cloths will be three months dirty then and though most outer cloths are ok underwear and socks will be extremely bad at that point.

The library connection was fine until about 1:30, at which point it's like someone flipped a switch and I couldn't stay connected to my game for more than 10 minutes. By about 3 I was lucky to be connected for 4 out of every 5 minutes regardless of what I was doing. I spent probably 2.5 hours at the end of the day trying to watch a 1 hour show.

But I guess I survived. I had ok food. I did critical gaming for my day. And I did eventually get through the shows I wanted to watch. I am still disappointed at immediately being hit by a warm wall of air leaving the library, as it was freezing cold inside. But the day passed. Things were ok. And I continue to hope help and donations come in time to pay the bills and try to hang on in the meantime.

Day 3995 - 6/9 - Mumbling lady, part 2

Today the mumbling lady sat next to me again. For about five hours there was constant running dialogue of what she was thinking and doing, hummms, big sighs, and extremely nasty nose snorting. I get it, she probably has a disability or something, but her thing triggers my thing. Thankfully I could just stare at my screen and not see her, and my game was loud enough to mostly drown her out.

The connection was terrible. It was so bad it was disconnecting completely at points. I was trying to watch a video stream from about 2 on and it couldn't connect to it at all. The odd thing was when I tried to connect on my tablet it worked with almost no issues at all. I hope that it's just a difference with the mobile client, or mobile connection, and not an indication that my wireless card is going bad on my laptop. I wish there was an easy way to verify that. Though I couldnt afford a new one if it were. (Though it had no issues there on Friday, and was only bad sometimes, so if it were going bad it would be an all the time thing regardless where I was.)

I guess the day wasn't terrible. I expected freezing cold inside, and a terrible connection, so I guess the day was what I expected.

I'm still so very exhausted. I can barely keep my eyes open. I've been sneezing and congested today too, so maybe I do have a cold. But I try to hope help and donations come. And I try to hang on until better days.

Day 3996 - 6/10 - Super hot

Today it was super hot. I guess the weather app was right. It was, in fact, so hot that even in the evening when the sun was going down it was still super hot, but hot in a weird way. I don't quite know how to describe it because I've never experienced it before. I guess it's maybe a humidity thing, but the air felt thick, and seemed a bit difficult to breathe.

Today went super fast. I guess because most of the day I was running upcoming game presentations from a show in the background while I played. But after a check of job searches in the morning I spent most of the rest of the day playing my MMO. I guess it was a better day. I honestly only remember a few bits and pieces. I'm still exhausted, sneezy, and extra hungry.

But I made it through the day. Hopefully I sleep ok tonight, as I lost several hours last night due to the heat. And hopefully help and donations come to pay the overdue car insurance, and registration due in just a hair over a month from now. And hopefully I can hang on until better days.

Day 3997 - 6/11 - Hot already

Today is just starting and it's hot already. I guess it never really cooled off last night. If this heat continues I will have to consider parking in a covered spot across campus because things in my car for showering and extra foods are at risk of being killed in this extreme heat.

I will probably just play during my class I TA today, as I expect they will just be going over something and then doing a lecture for most, or all, of the rest of class. No donations or help this week, so I'm still very worried about bills. But I try to hang on to hope. And hopefully I can make it to better days.

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