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Epic Fail: The Journal of a Homeless Gamer
Book 17: Animated Divergence

This is my journal I wrote during the time I was homeless. It is broken up by week for easier reading. Feel free to read it on the web or download the complete .pdf version and print it for reading offline.

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Week 855

Day 5979 - 11/13 - Wonton

Today nothing really special happened. I got very excited about a wonton ramen, but when I cooked it that wasn't what my brain was thinking when I saw it. I later realized my brain was thinking of pot stickers. Which I guess wouldn't have made sense in an instant ramen. But the wontons were... ok. They always break up in things, so it didn't seem worth the price increase for what it was over the basic package.

Day 5980 - 11/14 - Ok, but tired

Today I am ok, but pretty tired. I don't know if I've made any progress with my blurry vision, but the past few days I've gone out of my way to have chocolate doughnuts in the morning. Normally I try to do that only a few times a week due to my lactose intolerance, and I haven't confirmed it's related yet, but it seems like my vision has held on better. It still dips and comes back, but it seems like with a chocolate doughnut in the morning it doesn't dip as far. I don't think more chocolate would help, but I'm kind of tempted to try. I'll be running to the bathroom quickly though if I have more than just a little. Though I don't see how chocolate specifically can be helpful since it breaks down to generic sugar just like other sugars. But I'm not a nutrition guy, nor a doctor, so I don't know what or why it may be different. (When typing this in I have continued it, and it really doesn't seem to have a noteworthy impact on vision overall.)

I guess the day was ok other than that. Some people said some nice and encouraging things on a social page, so that makes me feel nice. But other than that it was a pretty regular day.

Day 5981 - 11/15 - The other thing

Today my brain was kind of distracted with a new pen and paper thing. I really want to try and stay focused and finish the first one first but it has actually kind of helped my first thing by letting my brain be distracted for a bit. It made me reexamine some of the base game things and now I'm considering how to better refine my own stuff I'm doing.

This was really it for the day. Pretty much a regular sad homeless day other than that.

Day 5982 - 11/16 - Fast day

Today turned out to feel really fast. I did just a bit of play in my MMO in the morning. Then I was in the mood to do some pen and paper hobby stuff. Before I knew it it was nearly 1:30. I didn't even remember when I had lunch. I played another game for a bit after that, then it was time to watch a show and have dinner.

I really wonder if I've somehow become sensitive to red meat lunchmeat. I had salami yesterday and it upset me. I had roast beef for the first time in probably months and that upset me. But cooked red meat is always fine. I even spent a bit on a special hamburger treat at a fast food place a few weeks ago and I was totally fine.

I guess, though extremely sad, today was pretty good.

Day 5983 - 11/17 - Kinda fast

Today is ok so far. It's been a bit quick feeling, but not as quick as yesterday, which is good. When a day goes by too quickly it feels like I lost it, no matter how productive it may have been.

I'm testing just having chicken so far today (for meat). There have been no issues so far, so it definitely seems like I've got issues with red lunchmeat now. I can't remember the last time I had it and didn't really have issues. (In a very quick search online, it looks like it may be linked to triggering G.E.R.D.S., so it's possibly been almost about 3 years since I could eat it without symptoms, since that's been about the time it feels like I've had my symptoms go from very rare to nearly all the time.)

I guess the day is pretty good so far, but certainly not special.

Day 5984 - 11/18 - Cold Monday

Today I expect will have nothing new, just the cold. It is pretty much full winter weather now, and I'm in full winter layers. Though my long sleeve shirts I always wear, and my hoodies, are both in really bad shape. They aren't unusable, but I wonder if the holes and tears are reducing my warmth.

Day 5985 - 11/19 - Mystery Tuesday

Today I don't know what to expect. I don't think there is anything I'm looking forward to. So it will probably just be a regular homeless day.

Week 856

Day 5986 - 11/20 - Forgotten day

Today I forgot to do writing. I don't really remember anything special happening. I know I did some pen and paper gaming stuff and that made the time pass very quickly, but I think that was really it.

Day 5987 - 11/21 - Poop test

Today I got a random poop test in the mail from my doctor people. Which as gross as it is, is pretty doable. Last I heard they were checking for colon cancer with a barium milk shake and super invasive exam. I know for sure I'd never be able to drink and hold that down for the X-rays. Stuff that consistency I pretty much would just throw up. So that is good, as that is something males over 50 really need to watch out for, and for various reasons I've never been tested yet. (Though they may have done this test a few years ago?)

Besides my muscles feeling pretty tired like maybe I'm dehydrated that was really all that was different today.

Day 5988 - 11/22 - Rainy day

Today it has been pouring rain pretty much all day. Thankfully I've been able to avoid it, so I have been able to at least stay dry. I've got some extra jaw and back pain going on though, so that hasn't been great, but I guess it's a pretty ok day.

Day 5989 - 11/23 - Pretty good

Today was pretty good. It rained almost constantly yesterday, but today it was just cloudy. I felt pretty ok though and did a mix of pen and paper hobby stuff, played some games, and watched some shows. So it was nice to feel ok enough to do all of my various things instead of too sad and skipping some.

My back is hurting a fair amount though. I'm not sure what is up with that. I guess I need to try to find time to do my stretching exercises again. I did recently get a free membership to a local gym through my health center. It's tempting to consider stretching there or doing some stuff in their pool. But I don't have cloths for it and making special time for that seems kinda disruptive since I wouldn't do a lot. I'll try to have more water overall too. I may be like always dehydrated.

Day 5990 - 11/24 - Productive

Today I was pretty productive doing what seems like a lot of stuff for my pen and paper hobby stuff. It really wasn't all that much in terms of time I don't think, but it was some important choices and direction that I'd kind of gotten stuck on. Though that was stuff for my second project. I am still at a pretty stuck point for the first one.

I guess other than that the day was ok. I was a bit cold, my back hurt, but it wasn't too bad.

Day 5991 - 11/25 - Probably rainy Monday

Today I expect will be pretty rainy. It hasn't for a while, but it still looks like it could, so I expect today will be the day it goes back to rain. I don't know what to expect for this week, but with many things closed Thursday and Friday it probably won't be great. Hopefully I can get some stuff done for my pen and paper hobby while I'm forced offline. Probably some art since that is 'getting behind' and easy to do in my car.

Day 5992 - 11/26 - Unknown Tuesday

Today I don't know what to expect at all. This is basically the middle of the week since I will mentally be writing Thursday and Friday off completely due to things being closed and the cold weather. I'll be lucky if I can get anything done. But hopefully things will be ok.

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