Week 851
Day 5951 - 10/16 - Feeling weird
Today I am feeling a bit weird. I think mostly because I was kept up very late last night, so that is throwing me off. But also I haven't been feeling great lately either. I think someone who was sick was sitting near me, or my ear infection is just getting to me. My ears are ringing and I'm a little dizzy. I feel super cold too. Though I did see about four people put on all they layers they had so it isn't just me being cold in the library.
I guess it was an ok day though. I did some stuff with my pen and paper gaming stuff I'm working on. During the forced outside Monday time I didn't expect to really get anything done for it, but I actually wound up doing a surprising amount of stuff for it, which I'm still transferring into the file, so that is great.
But I don't know. I just feel off today. Out of place. Like I'm somewhere completely unfamiliar. Or almost even like I am someone else who is similar to me, but not me.
Day 5952 - 10/17 - Condensed soup
Today I tried something I had thought of a little bit ago. I used my water warmer to make the hottest water and put that into a regular condensed soup. It worked out fine. As I expected, it was heated up enough. It wasn't amazing, but it had a lot of veggies and stuff I wouldn't normally otherwise get to eat, so that certainly seems like another viable food option. I certainly feel much better than I would compared to yet another day of ready to eat lunchmeat.
I was pretty tired today. And it was a very bad vision day. I could barely see past my laptop screen. And even then small text was pretty blurry. It's really stupid I have to wait three months to be seen. Sure, it's just blurry vision, not actual blindness, at least not yet, but still, you'd think that would get a priority appointment.
Day 5953 - 10/18 - Unrecorded day
Today I forgot to do a writing. I think it was a pretty basic day. I don't recall anything special happening, just a regular day.
Day 5954 - 10/19 - Odd tummy
Today my tummy feels a bit odd. I think it is because I got something a bit different last night for dinner and part of it was for leftovers today. I guess other than that it was an ok day. I spent some extra time with my pen and paper game stuff, so I didn't play video games much, but that's ok. I did what my brain and heart mostly wanted today and that is something.
Day 5955 - 10/20 - Sneezy
Today I feel a tiny bit dizzy, irritable, and pretty sneezy. I probably have a bit of a cold still. I've been freezing too, but everyone else in the library has been wearing winter layers, so I know it's not just me. (The temperature outside is showing 80F.) Hopefully I can get over my cold soon.
Day 5956 - 10/21 - Another Monday
Today is another unknown Monday. Hopefully it won't be too cold, I won't feel too sick, and the day can be calm and restful.
Day 5957 - 10/22 - Another Tuesday
Today is another unknown Tuesday. There may be some holiday stuff in games this week, though I think that might still be a bit off. But hopefully I can have a restful, fun, and calm day.
Week 852
Day 5958 - 10/23 - Sniffles and sneezing
Today there wasn't anything special or different really. I was a touch dizzy though. And I did have some times where I was sneezing quite a bit. I would guess I still have a cold.
Day 5959 - 10/24 - Blurry day
Today was a bad day for vision. In the early part it was one of the worst days, so I couldnt focus on nearly anything, physically or emotionally. I didn't get to do anything with my pen and paper game stuff until the mid-afternoon, doing much less than I had hoped I would. I still have probably 5 months, maybe more, to 'finish' so I'm not really under any time pressure since it's nearly done.
I guess it wasn't really a bad day besides that, though I am still very sneezy and just a tiny bit dizzy.
Day 5960 - 10/25 - Meh day
Today was another day I didn't really do what I had kind of hoped. My vision was one of the worst days until early afternoon. It was so bad I almost couldn't read stuff on my laptop screen. I had to lean forward to see. But I guess it was ok. I played games and watched shows.
I am still pretty contested, sneezy, and a very tiny bit dizzy. And of course my vision being too blurry most of the day didn't help recover or help me feel better at all.
Day 5961 - 10/26 - Forgotten chips
Today I guess was ok. I still feel a bit sick. Apparently I totally forgot I got some chips to have, so I had no chips for lunch or dinner. I guess it's fine. I can have them later. I did do some stuff for my pen and paper game, so that made me happy. But as always I was very sad about my life overall.
Day 5962 - 10/27 - Sad compacting
Today was pretty sad. I had to spend some time compacting and getting rid of what I could in the ex-garage. I hope the effort counts more than the amount, as I didn't get very much cleared. I can do more if absolutely necessary, but at this point entire parts of me will need to start to disappear. Like I have several kitchen things that could go next if need be, but then the cooking part of me can't recover without great effort. And the more of me I need to get rid of permanently the less of me feels like it remains.
Day 5963 - 10/28 - Unknown Monday
Today is yet another unknown Monday. I feel like something good and special may happen, though I don't know what that might be. The only thing I can really hope for these days is there is decent progress on my pen and paper hobby thing I'm working on. The rest is so out of my control I can't predict what may come.
Day 5964 - 10/29 - Unknown Tuesday
Today I don't know what to expect. Hopefully things will be calm, quiet, and restful. And nothing bad happens that would make my already sad and bad life worse.