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Epic Fail: The Journal of a Homeless Gamer
Book 17: Animated Divergence

This is my journal I wrote during the time I was homeless. It is broken up by week for easier reading. Feel free to read it on the web or download the complete .pdf version and print it for reading offline.

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Week 851

Day 5951 - 10/16 - Feeling weird

Today I am feeling a bit weird. I think mostly because I was kept up very late last night, so that is throwing me off. But also I haven't been feeling great lately either. I think someone who was sick was sitting near me, or my ear infection is just getting to me. My ears are ringing and I'm a little dizzy. I feel super cold too. Though I did see about four people put on all they layers they had so it isn't just me being cold in the library.

I guess it was an ok day though. I did some stuff with my pen and paper gaming stuff I'm working on. During the forced outside Monday time I didn't expect to really get anything done for it, but I actually wound up doing a surprising amount of stuff for it, which I'm still transferring into the file, so that is great.

But I don't know. I just feel off today. Out of place. Like I'm somewhere completely unfamiliar. Or almost even like I am someone else who is similar to me, but not me.

Day 5952 - 10/17 - Condensed soup

Today I tried something I had thought of a little bit ago. I used my water warmer to make the hottest water and put that into a regular condensed soup. It worked out fine. As I expected, it was heated up enough. It wasn't amazing, but it had a lot of veggies and stuff I wouldn't normally otherwise get to eat, so that certainly seems like another viable food option. I certainly feel much better than I would compared to yet another day of ready to eat lunchmeat.

I was pretty tired today. And it was a very bad vision day. I could barely see past my laptop screen. And even then small text was pretty blurry. It's really stupid I have to wait three months to be seen. Sure, it's just blurry vision, not actual blindness, at least not yet, but still, you'd think that would get a priority appointment.

Day 5953 - 10/18 - Unrecorded day

Today I forgot to do a writing. I think it was a pretty basic day. I don't recall anything special happening, just a regular day.

Day 5954 - 10/19 - Odd tummy

Today my tummy feels a bit odd. I think it is because I got something a bit different last night for dinner and part of it was for leftovers today. I guess other than that it was an ok day. I spent some extra time with my pen and paper game stuff, so I didn't play video games much, but that's ok. I did what my brain and heart mostly wanted today and that is something.

Day 5955 - 10/20 - Sneezy

Today I feel a tiny bit dizzy, irritable, and pretty sneezy. I probably have a bit of a cold still. I've been freezing too, but everyone else in the library has been wearing winter layers, so I know it's not just me. (The temperature outside is showing 80F.) Hopefully I can get over my cold soon.

Day 5956 - 10/21 - Another Monday

Today is another unknown Monday. Hopefully it won't be too cold, I won't feel too sick, and the day can be calm and restful.

Day 5957 - 10/22 - Another Tuesday

Today is another unknown Tuesday. There may be some holiday stuff in games this week, though I think that might still be a bit off. But hopefully I can have a restful, fun, and calm day.

Week 852

Day 5958 - 10/23 - Sniffles and sneezing

Today there wasn't anything special or different really. I was a touch dizzy though. And I did have some times where I was sneezing quite a bit. I would guess I still have a cold.

Day 5959 - 10/24 - Blurry day

Today was a bad day for vision. In the early part it was one of the worst days, so I couldnt focus on nearly anything, physically or emotionally. I didn't get to do anything with my pen and paper game stuff until the mid-afternoon, doing much less than I had hoped I would. I still have probably 5 months, maybe more, to 'finish' so I'm not really under any time pressure since it's nearly done.

I guess it wasn't really a bad day besides that, though I am still very sneezy and just a tiny bit dizzy.

Day 5960 - 10/25 - Meh day

Today was another day I didn't really do what I had kind of hoped. My vision was one of the worst days until early afternoon. It was so bad I almost couldn't read stuff on my laptop screen. I had to lean forward to see. But I guess it was ok. I played games and watched shows.

I am still pretty contested, sneezy, and a very tiny bit dizzy. And of course my vision being too blurry most of the day didn't help recover or help me feel better at all.

Day 5961 - 10/26 - Forgotten chips

Today I guess was ok. I still feel a bit sick. Apparently I totally forgot I got some chips to have, so I had no chips for lunch or dinner. I guess it's fine. I can have them later. I did do some stuff for my pen and paper game, so that made me happy. But as always I was very sad about my life overall.

Day 5962 - 10/27 - Sad compacting

Today was pretty sad. I had to spend some time compacting and getting rid of what I could in the ex-garage. I hope the effort counts more than the amount, as I didn't get very much cleared. I can do more if absolutely necessary, but at this point entire parts of me will need to start to disappear. Like I have several kitchen things that could go next if need be, but then the cooking part of me can't recover without great effort. And the more of me I need to get rid of permanently the less of me feels like it remains.

Day 5963 - 10/28 - Unknown Monday

Today is yet another unknown Monday. I feel like something good and special may happen, though I don't know what that might be. The only thing I can really hope for these days is there is decent progress on my pen and paper hobby thing I'm working on. The rest is so out of my control I can't predict what may come.

Day 5964 - 10/29 - Unknown Tuesday

Today I don't know what to expect. Hopefully things will be calm, quiet, and restful. And nothing bad happens that would make my already sad and bad life worse.

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