Week 865
Day 6049 - 1/22 - Pained
Today I have a few pains. There is still a bit of back stiffness when I get up, so that isn't great. But there is another thing going on I guess on the outside edge of my hips and around both sides of my knees maybe? The only way I can think to describe it would be if I'd been out jogging and got dehydrated. It's an odd feeling.
My tummy got upset with what I picked for food today. This was about the 5th time maybe that has happened over the last 5-8 times I've gotten this food over the past maybe two months. I think I need to avoid it from now on. It's a salami and cheese pack, and I know I'm lactose intolerant, so that is always a risk, but it's small enough that I should be ok. But I guess I still am maybe red meat sensitive, so I guess the combination of the two have wrecked me the past few times.
I guess the rest of the day was pretty regular.
Day 6050 - 1/23 - Decent day
Today was a pretty decent day. My back is still a bit stiff. There was a bit at the end of the day though that maybe wasn't the best. There has been a regular guy sitting at my table in the afternoons. He's ok. Though today he had a new friend that hasn't been there before. I don't know what this guy had going on, but after about an hour his scents started making my eyes feel like they were burning. Thankfully I left not too much after that and things settled down quickly.
Day 6051 - 1/24 - So very tired
Today I am so very exhaustedly tired. I feel ok in general, but for an unknown reason I lost 30-50% of my normal amount of sleep. I was comfortable enough, warm enough, felt safe enough, but for at least about 2 hours after trying to fall asleep I was having a very hard time. And then around 4 AM, probably due to cold, I woke up and was awake for probably another hour before I could get back to sleep again.
I guess the day was pretty good other than that, though I've been sneezing like crazy. I didn't really do anything important or worth talking about since I was so tired. I just played stuff and watched a few shows. The few important or interesting things I planned to do I just completely forgot about because I was so tired.
Day 6052 - 1/25 - Not reconstituted
Today was pretty ok. I was still pretty much completely wrecked for losing sleep the other night. I did random game playing and had shows in the background, but mostly don't recall any of it.
I had a thought the other day that maybe reconstituting the instant ramen before cooking would help. Checking online though it seems that isn't recommended, as it can lead to uneven cooking. I guess I'm left with still trying different brands, or different cup/no cup types, or simply letting it sit in the water longer. The thing is about half of them become prohibitively expensive, so my options are pretty limited.
Hopefully I can sleep better, get more clear headed, and be free to do more things with my day again soon.
Day 6053 - 1/26 - Creative, but not great food
Today my brain felt ok and I was creative for about 1.5 hours. It actually felt like a lot longer, but hopefully the small bump will give my creative side momentum and I can go back to doing a little each day. For most of about a week or maybe more I've just not felt like being creative.
I didn't get great food though. I got chicken tenders, which often ends badly. It wasn't as bad as it could have ended, but it wasn't great either, which was sad since the thing I really wanted wasn't available. But overall today was pretty good.
Day 6054 - 1/27 - Hopefully creative Monday
Today hopefully the momentum from doing creative work yesterday will continue and I will get a bit more done for my pen and paper gaming stuff. I still should have no issue 'finishing' by my self set deadline of the end of February, but sooner is better as that leaves a bit more time for it to 'rest' and consider minor changes that would make it better.
Day 6055 - 1/28 - Unknown Tuesday
Today I don't know what to expect. I have nothing special to look forward to, there is just my regular homeless life stuff.
Week 866
Day 6056 - 1/29 - Supposedly for privacy
Today was pretty good. I took a risk and got some cheese, but I only had a bit and saved the rest, so it was ok.
I finally got to ask a head librarian a question that has been on my mind since I saw it happen. A few weeks ago some people came in and removed all the cameras. Apparently it's a district decision to now only have cameras pointed at the exits "for privacy reasons." Really? What if someone is stealing? Or gets hurt and you need to review the footage? Or someone starts harassing someone? None of that would be recorded. If you want to give people privacy, record the things, but only watch it if you need to observe a thing. Removing cameras entirely seems like a very bad idea.
Day 6057 - 1/30 - Not feeling safe
Today there was a weirdness in the morning that made me not feel safe. That is the most sad part about my sad life. When I am reminded that things aren't permanent or stable, or places that seemed safe may not be, it throws everything off and makes me feel scared and worried. Sometimes for days or even weeks at a time. I have to try and just forget it and move on and focus on hanging on to the things and places that do make me feel better or safer.
Day 6058 - 1/31 - Raining
Today has been raining. I didn't actually see or hear any, but the ground is wet like it's been raining off and on all day.
My leg is still being bad. It's like the insert isn't making any difference. I don't know if it's the cold weather, or it's getting worse (and the insert isn't compensating), or what. It's not terrible, but it's frustrating.
Day 6059 - 2/1 - Good but tired
Today was pretty good, but I am pretty tired for some reason. I probably have a cold, as I've been very sniffly and sneezy for a while now. I did do some hobby stuff, but with my self set deadline of the end of the month I probably only need to do about 1 hour a day, and even then that should be plenty of time to finish. But overall, besides feeling pretty sleepy, it was a pretty good day.
Day 6060 - 2/2 - Upset tummy
Today I got a bit of an upset tummy from the food I got. I'm seriously considering complaining to the food store. I'm not very sick, but the food was put out this morning and it was frozen solid. I think it got freezer burn because even hours later after it was thawed it still didn't taste great.
I guess the day was pretty good other than that. I did a tiny bit of creative stuff, but mostly spent the day playing something that's in very early access. I'm still very tired and very sleepy.
Day 6061 - 2/3 - Maybe rainy Monday
Today I don't know what to expect, though it may be raining. There have been clouds the past few days, and it did rain most of, I think, Thursday. I don't know what else to expect for the day.
Day 6062 - 2/4 - Unknown Tuesday
Today is again another unknown Tuesday. Maybe the rain will be gone. Maybe my cold will be gone. There is nothing special I expect.
