Week 847
Day 5923 - 9/18 - Free air
Today was ok in the end. I changed my tire appointment because it's been losing about 10 air whatever units a day, so I don't want to keep refilling it. I went to do it today and the person gave me free air, so that was nice. I did pay $4 so far though, which while not much, every little bit hurts these days.
I also got permission to post part of my pen and paper hobby thing I've been working on today. I took part out that can be used with any game and so that got the ok to be posted since it's not technically connected to the unreleased game.
I guess that is really it for today. I cried a bit last night due to being too sad about money 
, but all I can do is continue to try to make the best choices with what I do have.
Day 5924 - 9/19 - Doctor and tire fix
Today has been very tiring. I had to get up early to go see the doctor, and again it's like why am I here, because basically she said she would need to see my eye doctor notes from my last visit and then based on that forward me to a non-prescription type of eye doctor to figure out what is going on. Why didn't she just ask for that months ago? So who knows how long this next B.S. cycle of see someone and then wait to see someone else until I get a real answer will take.
I also was not able to fix the tire. Even though the nail was right in the middle, the most fixable spot, apparently there was wear on the outside from driving while it was flat that made it risky. I wonder how long I'd been driving on it that first time since it seemingly was losing 10 lbs a day. Probably a few before the discovery of it feeling weird at least. Thankfully he gave me a super good deal and didn't force me to replace both tires, which only cost $14. While I need every penny I can keep with so much unpaid it could have been far more expensive. (Last time I got tires they were $75 each.) Though the front two are apparently at the very very low point and should be changed. But again, that's another $150 I don't have. I'm not super worried though since I only drive about 1k miles per year.
As always all I can do is try to manage as best as I can with what I have.
Day 5925 - 9/20 - Maybe sort of hot things
Today I put a something on my wish list. A couple of people at the library have been regularly using these portable warming things that aren't much bigger than a small thermos. I looked them up online. It looks like you can really just do water type stuff, not soups, but I guess they are pretty reasonably priced. With not being on campus for the foreseeable future something like a cup of soup every now and then might not be the worst. I guess I'll see if any notice during the upcoming gift season. Though I expect I'll have to get it for myself, and with all my other costs even at $40 that could be a while.
I guess the day was pretty ok other than that. I got a better food but my tummy is complaining while digesting it, so that doesn't feel great. But other than that the day was pretty ok.
Day 5926 - 9/21 - More hobby stuff
Today I got to sleep in a bit, so that was super nice. But mostly I just worked on more of my pen and paper hobby stuff. I just played games for a little bit. There is some new game stuff coming next week that is a free update for me, so I'm looking forward to that. But in general I've just felt like spending more time with my pen and paper gaming hobby than video games lately. I think mostly because I feel pretty sad and I think maybe it's helping me feel a bit more distracted than my regular games would.
Day 5927 - 9/22 - Ok day
Today was an ok day, nothing super special though. I did a bit of game playing and watched a movie, so that was just a teeny bit different. But really it was a pretty regular homeless Sunday.
Day 5928 - 9/23 - Maybe chilly Monday
Today may be a bit chilly. It has warmed up slightly outside lately, but I expect it will go back to being cold quickly. It seems to be getting colder this year faster than usual.
Day 5929 - 9/24 - New game stuff Tuesday
Today I don't know what to expect other than one of my favorite games is getting expansion content for free for me. I haven't played it in a while, so that will hopefully be super fun.
Overall though I've been having a hard time not being super sad, but hopefully I can continue to hang on.
Week 848
Day 5930 - 9/25 - Unbearable pain
Today I have been in some pretty unbearable pain. It may just barely be subsiding a little now though. But sometime Sunday night my left lower jaw area started hurting pretty badly. It got to levels that normal people would have been uncontrollably crying and throwing up. It's only just now lowering into a reasonably tolerable level for me. Yesterday and today I had to max ibuprofen pain pills, and today it has been so bad I'm up to 10 of a 6 recommended daily amount. I'll probably get to 12 later when I try and sleep. I guess I have to be careful because going over can be very dangerous. Doing the math on my weight though I shouldn't really be at a very dangerous overdose level until 16 pills within 24 hours. I'm trying to do the minimum I can, but it is truly some extreme pain. Unfortunately my local numbing medicine does nothing. It's supposed to last 4 hours, but it seems to only barely help for about 15 minutes and then wear off. This morning too the sensitive lymph node has turned to swelling in that area too, but not too much, barely noticeable looking at it in a mirror.
I also had a very sad car scare yesterday morning. When I got in my car and turned the key nothing happened. Sometimes it takes a half second, and a few times a year maybe 1-2 seconds, but this time I held it for 5-8 seconds and nothing came on but the lights and fans. I stopped, waited 15 seconds and turned again, same result. Waited again, same again. Before I called my insurance to jump me I decided to wait about 5 minutes and see. Sure enough that time it started up fine, and every time since. So I guess just a scare there hopefully. I did notice my oil was below the add line so I added some, so maybe that will help.
So, pretty sad, worried, and sick feeling for the start of this sad week. Not a good start.
Day 5931 - 9/26 - Mostly better
Today I am mostly better from my pain. At around 3 or so yesterday it started to shift from extreme pain to more swelling. By around 7 or 8 the pain was pretty much to a moderate level, but the swelling had gone from just the side of my jaw to all of the side and wrapping around the front part way, and all of that area was numb. It had become natures air bag. By the time I got 'in bed' the pain had pretty much subsided to just the littlest bit. I slept ok, but it still felt weird, like when you sleep with chills and a bit of fever.
This morning it was still extremely swollen in terms of area, but not in size. Looking in the mirror after my shower I could barely tell. It was visible enough my left side looked more square jawed and my right its usual pointy angle, but I doubt anyone looking at me would actually notice the difference.
Now it's reaching early evening and there is no pain and the swelling I think is also all gone. I do feel a bit torn up in the area that is a bit sensitive if I touch it, so I wonder if what happened wasn't teeth but something got jammed into my gum very deeply somehow. Whatever the cause I've only taken 4 pain pills today (out of the 6 maximum recommended dosage), so I'm sure tomorrow should be back to normal, and tonight I can hopefully rest without feeling weird.
Day 5932 - 9/27 - Another scary start, way too hot
Today was another scary start. This time though I tried just turning the key back to the point where the lights and fans are on, and then forward again. After a few non-starts it started totally normal. And it continued to have zero issues for the other four times I started. I guess it was only Tuesday that I had the other scare, but that means in total of 2 scary non-start events out of 5 other starts for Tuesday and Wednesday, then 4 today, that's 2 out of 11 attempts. That seems really bad and hopefully won't continue.
I tried checking online and only really one symptom matches a battery issue and one matches a starter issue, out of a list of like 6-8 issues each. I hope it's just rare cold weather conditions as it has only happened in the mornings, but I guess I'll have to keep an eye on it.
The rest of the day was pretty hot and not great. The library is closed for some special staff thing they are doing. Since the connection outside wasn't great I only stayed for just under 2 hours. At that point it had gotten up to 90F or higher. It was insane. I had to make some extra trips to find places to hang out inside and cool off and try to find shade for the car.
The day isn't even over for me yet. I still have a few more hours until I settle for the night. Hopefully I can continue to stay cool, continue to feel ok, and the car continues to hang on.
Day 5933 - 9/28 - My own choking hazard
Today I was my own choking hazard. I guess with my constant extra stress of blurry vision, and added stress from recent tooth or jaw pain, and car worries, my GERDs was pretty bad today. The thing is it's impossible to tell if my throat is going to be squeezing or not in advance. So when I had my first bite of (almost always overly dry) chicken from the food store I swallowed it and it got half way down and started choking me. For the next almost probably 20 minutes I was couching up yuck or worrying that my body would try and cough up more. I effectively wound up throwing up a little twice. The weirdest part of this is because it's effectively that I'm getting choked from the inside, once the stuff is no longer stuck part way down I feel totally fine again. I guess that is at least something.
Nothing really special or different other than that. Just pretty much a normal homeless Saturday.
Day 5934 - 9/29 - Ok day
Today was a pretty ok day. Nothing super special. I did mostly just do pen and paper hobby stuff though. But my jaw pain wasn't really bad, and I didn't feel sick, so that is something.
Day 5935 - 9/30 - Heatwave
Today is supposed to start to get super hot. It's weird that the weather says tomorrow it will be nearly 100F. I guess we'll see. That likely will mean the library will get too crowded and if it does that will be sad.
Day 5936 - 10/1 - Probably too hot
Today it is supposed to be near 100F, which would be crazy hot. I expect I'll just be in the library all the time though. Which means I'll likely be freezing because it is always too cold there.
