Week 837
Day 5853 - 7/10 - Mostly six
Today I am very tired. Like 4 out of the last 5 nights I've only gotten about 6 hours of sleep or less, though last night wasn't quite as bad. I think it's mostly due to being imbalanced due to the heat. I'm not sure.
Today I had fun with a new game. There are some things I'm trying to unlock with it which has been frustrating due to low drop rates, but I try to not let it get to me. Really the game is more casual than not, so I'm just doing the things I can and have fun with that. And when the rare unlock happens they happen. Lots to do until then and not worth stressing out over until much later in the game.
Day 5854 - 7/11 - Hot again
Today was pretty good. I had fun with my games, though I just went through story stuff, nothing super fancy or special I'd been hoping for.
It's super hot again. I don't know the peak, but a few hours ago I noticed the weather notice on the web tab showed 96F. Enough heat had actually come through the library roof that for about the last 1.5 hours I actually got to take off my hoodie and long sleeve shirt. I think that is the first time I've been able to do that in the library in probably the last 6 months.
I'm good, but tired. I slept pretty good last night, but I still haven't caught up from the previous lost sleep. I'd say hopefully I'll sleep better tonight, but if it is going to be super hot again I will probably have more lost sleep.
Day 5855 - 7/12 - Disappointing
Today I was mad, sad, upset, and disappointed all day. From the very start of the day at the library the connection was garbage. I was getting disconnected from everything I tried to do every 10 to 15 minutes. I couldn't focus on or achieve any of my goals in my games that I hoped to work on today and it even made me feel like not playing. And when I did take breaks to not play my shows were getting disconnected as well.
I was so upset and sad at the thought that this might be due to my laptop not having great WiFi I looked up a very solid one that would be WiFi 7. The library just recently got changed to 6, so 7 would be total overkill, but if I were going to change the chip it would make sense to see if I could just spend a bit more and get the newest thing instead of doing more of a side step. But I don't have enough in gift money at the online place I shop, and I have no cash to spend. So even if that is the probably solution I can't do it.
I guess there was a tiny movement on my eye and ankle health checks. I have to talk to different people than I talked to today, so that won't happen until probably the middle of the week next week since it's now the weekend.
So today felt very disappointing and like everything is out of my control.
Day 5856 - 7/13 - Much better
Today was a much better connection. It was actually strong and stable all day (as it should be) so I played my games and had fun, and while I did get a lot of general progress there was no special progress.
The weather has actually reversed. I'd say at the most it is currently in the low 70s down from the low 80s. And it has actually been gray and looking like rain for a few hours now.
I'm pretty tired from not sleeping well, but hopefully the reduction in temperature and good play day means I'll feel better and be able to rest better tonight.
Day 5857 - 7/14 - Some drops
Today was pretty good though there were maybe half a dozen or more network drops during the day that messed up my games, so that was sad.
I had trouble sleeping again last night, so I'm pretty tired and didn't feel like doing the things I'm supposed to in regards to my health stuff. It's probably fine, as things barely move on weekends, so I'll do it in the morning tomorrow.
Day 5858 - 7/15 - Cooler Monday
Today will probably be a cooler Monday. The 90s seem to have fully gone, and we seem back down to the mid 70s. I prefer warmer, but I guess it's ok since that has really messed up my sleep. Hopefully I can sleep ok again soon and get rested. With everything terrible in my life even in the best of conditions I can barely function.
Day 5859 - 7/16 - Unknown Tuesday
Today I don't really know what to expect. I think my regular shooter that I play may be getting some new stuff, and if so I have that to look forward to. But other than that I don't know what to expect. Hopefully I can continue to be ok and hang on until better days.
Week 838
Day 5860 - 7/17 - Double disappointment
Today has been a double disappointment. First was news in the morning about getting my eyes checked. Apparently while regular vision stuff is covered, apparently health related vision stuff is not. (Which is opposite of what the person on the phone told me when I called to ask my insurance if it's covered.) I asked how much it would be to see such a doctor, but it could be days before hearing a reply. They implied I should see my general doctor, but that is why I went for blood pressure back in the day. The tests showed nothing abnormal at the time that might cause it, so I don't see how she would be able to diagnose the issue unless there are other tests.
The second disappointment came kind of throughout the rest of the day, from about 1 on. I was again getting disconnected from the wireless connection for huge portions of time. All totaled I probably lost 1.5 hours of useable time. It would disconnect, I'd then have to wait 10-20 minutes and then I could get back on. Not only is this disappointing in general, but yes, it does appear to specifically be the laptop. I'd heard before that this manufacturer tends to use not great chips, and I wonder if all of the issues in the library were possibly due to this. But today I confirmed, and sort of also on the previous few days, as every time it was more than a minute I'd get my tablet, and that would immediately connect and show effectively double the download speed in tests as the laptop would see. And not only did I not see others around me having issues, but during one outage (where I was on my tablet connected fine) someone sat at my table sideways, so I could see their screen, and in about 3 seconds total they'd opened the connection, connected, and were browsing online fine. So it's definitely my laptop's WiFi chip.
I cashed out some money I had for recycling, which I usually save for gas, but that will probably take a few days to get to me. But the minute I have it available I'll change to effectively a top of the line current generation connection. I would still like to jump ahead to 7 instead of a more horizontal step within 6, but I'm only mostly sure the 7 chip would fit. But the bigger reason is that in checking a few articles it seems mainstream adoption of 7 is still likely years off due to costs. (And public places using it even further than that.) So I probably would never find anywhere to gain the benefits of being on 7.
So today was very disappointing. I've lost a lot of time I could have used online. And I don't feel any more hopeful about getting my health issues taken care of.
Day 5861 - 7/18 - Happy to disappointment
Today had a pretty rapid shift. My library time started out frustrating, as I couldn't connect for the first 15 minutes or so. I really didn't want to need to spend the money on a new WiFi chip, so I continued to hang on and did stuff on my table while I waited. After I got on it seemed to be stable and solid.
I was having a good time and pretty relaxed until the late afternoon when again it dropped. And this time it remained not connected. And again I instantly connected with my table just fine, and everyone around me seemed fine. So after about 30 minutes I gave up and spent the money to order the new chip. That probably won't get installed until Wednesday, so like the past few days I may yet again lose upwards of 2 hours of my possible online time due to not being able to connect just because my laptop WiFi chip is bad and has issues in a few places.
So this overall doesn't seem great. I've gotten two other laptops from this manufacturer before and not had issues. But this time... it's not even 2 years old and two of the most important laptop keyboard keys fail to the point of not being useable in games, and now I'm on an unreliable WiFi chip... it makes me not feel great about my choice in manufacturer.
Day 5862 - 7/19 - Interrupted but good
Today was going really good after a rocky start. I thought, 'wow, it's been going good, maybe the connection won't be garbage again today.' Probably less than 5 minutes later the connection dropped, everyone around me seemed fine, and my tablet was fine. It came back, and dropped, repeatedly every 5 minutes for a bit. I could not continue playing my games at all (online). At that point I gave up and watched a show. At least with that it could mostly buffer over the drops. And mostly it did. Over the next like 1.5 hours there were only about 4 pauses of 5 minutes each. But after that for the last hour or so it seemed ok again.
So overall I had a pretty good day, made some progress with my game stuff and had fun. Someone said they tried to respond back about making an appointment and I didn't get the call, so I tried looking online to make one and couldn't find any available times. I messaged back telling her that, so maybe she can, but I guess we'll see. It seems the possible movement on my ankle health has come to a rapid stop.
Day 5863 - 7/20 - No disconnection
Today there surprisingly was no disconnection. I could do what I wanted. Though I did adjust some things because I kept expecting a disconnection.
There were only some people at my table for part of the time, so mostly things were quiet and calm. Though I was happy on the surface to not be disconnected I was still pretty depressed deeper down. I would still have much preferred a regular life. Lately on weekend and holiday times I've thought it would be nice to be in a home, cook stuff outside, have friends over and play games. Or even just to have a restaurant meal with friends and laugh at silly stories. But that is not my life. And as I often wonder, will it ever be? Will I ever get a chance again for it to be?
Day 5864 - 7/21 - Stupid laptop WiFi
Today my laptop WiFi is being stupid again. It's the middle of my library time and it's been down for 15 minutes so far, claiming there is no connection, while my tablet connects immediately and has no issues. I'm glad I got the new chip coming and didn't keep suffering and waiting because every time this happens I'm getting more and more angry.
I guess today so far was ok. I do feel pretty sad and lonely in general, and as always my odd blurry vision issue does not help me feel ok about things, but I did get some chances at special things in my game before the disconnection, so I guess that was something.
I've no idea if the second half of my day will be forced to be offline or limited to the tablet, but I guess things could be worse.
Day 5865 - 7/22 - Mystery Monday
Today I don't know what to expect. It will likely be a pretty regular homeless summer day. It has become absurdly hot again lately, but hopefully it will be cooling down soon.
Day 5866 - 7/23 - Hopefully new WiFi chip
Today hopefully I can get my new WiFi chip and have an uninterrupted day. That would at least be something. Often things come in the later afternoon though, so it's possible I'll have to wait until the evening to pick it up, or tomorrow in the morning. But hopefully these connection interruptions will stop happening after the change.
