Week 871
Day 6091 - 3/5 - Slim shady
Today I was again very sleepy and pretty tired. I have been for a few days now. But I have also done at least some work on my pen and paper hobby stuff that I wanted to do, so that's good.
The morning started with an odd thought. I went to the food store and they have some cooked food that they put out for people to put in containers and pay by weight. If I do a bit of a lie and say the cooked food is cold food at the self checkout then my food benefit money will cover it. (They are the same price.) Though that is pretty pricy to do, so I have to be very careful how much I get.
This morning blocking the area of foods that I wanted to get was a guy who seemed super shady. Sure, it was raining, but he had his rainish hoodie coat bundled all the way, with the hood pulled up as far over his head as possible, cinched closed as much as it could be. He had three small sized boxes. For reference if I fill that up to about 1/3 of the way it is about $5-7 depending on what the foods are. This guy went to hash browns and pretty much packed it full, then got something else and did the same, then filled the last 2/3 full of bacon. With what I've paid before that was probably hitting $15-30 total. When I saw he got more than one container of stuff I figured this guy was just going to walk right past the checkouts and not pay. There is no way this was just one meal. This is probably more than all day worth of food for this one guy.
But I was wrong. While it initially looked like he was going to walk right out, since he went behind the self checkout area, he turned and put the food down to pay (entering the exit.) Did he pay for all the things or did he slip one or two into his very large pockets? I can't say as both walking away and paying I was behind his back and couldn't see. Maybe he was buying for some other people too and they will split the cost.
But as I considered it an odd thought occurred to me. Someone with enough money to not care how much it would cost would very likely act the same (in terms of getting the items) as someone who planned on walking out and stealing it. The difference would be not worrying about the two or three people who would see him walk out vs. stopping to pay and not caring about the cost.
While there are always the sayings that we can't judge someone by their appearance, not know their story without hearing it, the thought that a thief and a rich person would act very similar struck me as a very odd thought.
Day 6092 - 3/6 - Exhausted again
Today I got enough sleep, but I am just exhausted again. I felt ok and alert and such up until lunch. Then after I had lunch I pretty much just completely crashed. So after that I just played a bit more and then watched some shows. I guess it was a pretty ok day though.
Day 6093 - 3/7 - Interest level undetermined
Today I feel a bit better, though I'm still very tired. I did spend a couple of hours with my pen and paper hobby stuff, so I am happy I did that.
I did try a new free to play game and I'm not sure how I feel about it. I still wish I could find a collectable card game I really like, but this doesn't seem like that at all. I thought it kind of was in early peeks. It's more likely accurate to say it's closer to a deck constructing game than a collectable card game. So far it doesn't seem like I will have any control over my starting stuff. It seems you pick a 'hero' and they have possible things they can get. But the choice of how your board seems random each round, and then you auto battle an AI opponent or a duplicated person's deck run by AI. Which is also very weird because it feels like this means I can't predict or really control much of anything. And I have no attachment or connection to my player opponents at all. I'll keep trying for a bit because it's different and I like to try different things and figure out what things I may like. But it's very different from stuff I've done or liked before.
Link to The Bazaar
Day 6094 - 3/8 - Another migraine
Today was another migraine. It started before lunch, so it kind of killed my regular after lunch routine, which is pen and paper stuff, then a bit more gaming, then a show with dinner. I basically just messed around with the new free game I started yesterday. It's nearly zero real thought, so it was a lazy thing to do while I had the migraine.
I wish I knew if there were something connected to the migraines so I could maybe prevent them. I guess it could be worse. For me it's just eye pressure, ears ringing, and a pretty bad headache, maybe a touch of dizziness. I've heard of others who get unbearable pain, or get so dizzy they throw up, so I guess at least mine aren't as bad as they could be.
Day 6095 - 3/9 - Still tired
Today I am still pretty tired, both from not great sleep, but also from losing an hour due to the time change. I did probably do the things I wanted for the day though. I did just a little bit for my pen and paper hobby and probably spent way too much time with the new free game I'm checking out to see if I can understand it well enough to be worth my time. The answer is probably no, because I'm not doing well with it, as a big part of that is you need to win 4 times (I think just against copied player boards) or you don't get any unlocks. In general I'm bad with this kind of game, but it's free, so it's worth continuing to try and investigate if I can get better or not to be worth my time. At least for now.
Day 6096 - 3/10 - Probably tired Monday
Today I have noting that I expect, except that I will probably still be tired from the time change and such. Hopefully I can get some stuff done on my pen and paper game since my ideal 'feature complete' date is rapidly approaching. But there is still time to keep working on it if I need.
Day 6097 - 3/11 - Probably tired Tuesday
Today I will probably still be pretty tired from the time change. Usually it takes me at least a week to settle in to the changes for when I do stuff and losing some sleep. But hopefully today will be a pretty regular day.
Week 872
Day 6098 - 3/12 - Unexpected storm
Today as of about 11 in the morning it has been completely storming. It is pouring rain super hard, and the wind is blowing so hard that at one point I could feel it shaking the library briefly. We even lost power from 1:30-2:30 and I was afraid I'd have to leave because it seemed like the power wouldn't come back on.
I guess it was a pretty good day, but because of the power uncertainty it made me lose that part of the day that I'd do my pen and paper hobby stuff.
Day 6099 - 3/13 - Shortened day
Today was a shortened day by a few hours due to my regular eye doctor appointment. So mostly today I played mostly regular things and watched a few shows. It was still pouring in the morning into the afternoon, but now in the late afternoon the rain and wind has gone for the moment.
Day 6100 - 3/14 - No coloring
Today I was weirdly in the mood to do some coloring work for stuff I have for my pen and paper hobby stuff that I'm working on, but for some reason I couldn't find the digital pictures I thought I took. I guess either I imagined that I took them and moved them onto my system, or they got lost among the other pictures somehow.
After finding out I didn't have the pictures to do the coloring I pretty quickly lost steam. I crashed hard and got extremely tired, far too tired to do any kind of thinking work, or even re-read through the material for a language check. I just watched casual videos mostly and did super casual playing.
My right ankle has been acting up lately. I haven't removed the special pad to check yet, but it genuinely feels like it's gone flat and isn't at all supporting in the special way that it's supposed to. I don't remember when I got them, but the guy implied it should be fine for up to a year. It really feels like it's only been a few months so far. Pulling it out now it's smooshed pretty flat, but there is a more rigid area giving a bit of an arch, so it should in theory be doing something. I don't know how difficult it would be to get the old ones to compare to. Right now my trunk is pretty packed full of drinks, so it could be a while before I can easily dig through to get to the other side where I think the original boot pads are.
Day 6101 - 3/15 - Feeling kinda sad
Today I guess I'm just mostly feeling sad. Though I did get to color and do some work on my pen and paper hobby stuff, I think that might be part of why I feel a bit sad. While I can't say or predict how it may be perceived when it goes out to people in two months, I can't help but feel like no one will care or it will just go unseen. (I'll hopefully be able to see downloads and maybe views on the site I'm going to put them on, and will give it a full year before I stop checking, as different seasons may have a bigger draw for one or the other.)
But too I guess I also just feel uncared for and unloved overall. I know that probably really isn't the case, but I feel both of these. Uncared for and unloved and also like what I do won't matter to anyone, and without seeing evidence otherwise it is how I feel, and thus why I feel sad.
I have also crashed pretty hard again after lunch. I don't know if it's due to some herb roasted chicken I got or what. But yesterday and today it's like a few hours after lunch I can barely keep my eyes open. And my allergies are going super crazy with sniffles and sneezing.
Day 6102 - 3/16 - Still so tried
Today I am still extremely tired and feel barely able to keep my eyes open or think clearly. I guess it is mostly just extra stress, or being unable to fight off the stress lately. But oof, I feel so tired.
Day 6103 - 3/17 - Maybe dry Monday
Today may be dry. The crazy storm which has been here has been slowing since Saturday, so maybe things will start to clear up today.
Day 6104 - 3/18 - Unknown Tuesday
Today I don't know what to expect. I may still be overly sleepy. It may still be rainy. Hopefully I will be ok and continue to hang on.
