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Epic Fail: The Journal of a Homeless Gamer
Book 17: Animated Divergence

This is my journal I wrote during the time I was homeless. It is broken up by week for easier reading. Feel free to read it on the web or download the complete .pdf version and print it for reading offline.

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Week 869

Day 6077 - 2/19 - Warm inside

Today it was warm inside the library, yesterday too. I guess over the holiday something changed and the heater is on now. It wasn't very warm, but warm enough to take off my second hoodie layer. That's really all that is new.

Day 6078 - 2/20 - Warmer outside

Today was a pretty regular day. It was actually a little bit warmer outside, though the mornings and evenings are still colder than it feels like it should be.

Nothing really special for the day other than I feel a bit nervous about my second eye poking tomorrow.

Day 6079 - 2/21 - Second eye poke

Today was my second eye poking. It was a bit more terrible than last time. I don't think I was quite numbed properly. But I think my theory that I was allergic to something they gave me for after care was correct. I haven't used that and already my eye almost feels like I could put the contact back in after only maybe two hours after the poking. I don't have any of the itchy, swelling, or burning that I felt last time. It does still feel like crying, not in the tear sense but because of trauma sense, so it's not fully stable yet. But hopefully soon I'll start seeing better and be back to normal with no crazy random blurry dips.

Day 6080 - 2/22 - Sensitive

Today my eyes still seem a bit more light sensitive than usual. I guess though I'll gladly take that over swollen, itchy, and burning feeling. Today was also a pretty blurry vision day. I have my theoretical last poking in a month, so after that hopefully blurry vision days will be done. Peeking at their picture scan the bump part inside my eye looked about the same though I don't know if that was the same magnification level I saw before. Hopefully everything will work out ok, or at least still be on the road to recovery.

Day 6081 - 2/23 - Still a blurry day

Today is still a blurry vision day, which is sad as it pretty much kills my creativity and ability to absorb information and think. I guess it's ok though, especially if it means my eye is healing and returning to what it should be.

Day 6082 - 2/24 - No expectation Monday

Today I don't really expect much. Hopefully my vision will stop being blurry. It's not the most blurry, but it does throw my mood off enough to kind of throw off my day.

Day 6083 - 2/25 - Maybe regular Tuesday

Today will maybe be a regular day. I hope I get a good amount of sleep and my eyes continue to heal and get improved vision.

Week 870

Day 6084 - 2/26 - Greasy

Today my chicken I got for food was extra greasy for some reason. It kind of made my tummy a bit queasy, which threw off my mood and ability to focus. So today was just casual playing and show watching. I guess overall though it was an ok day.

Day 6085 - 2/27 - Forgot the dryer sheet

Today for some reason I only got about 5 hours of sleep. I guess it worked out ok, as I greatly underestimated laundry time before the library opened. Well, more accurately the time to do things before doing laundry. I apparently totally forgot the dryer sheets that make things smell nice and have a very slight clean smell. The cloths were all the way down to about 5 minutes until done by the time I remembered. I guess it worked out ok. Things smell clean enough and the scent only lasts a few days anyways. And it there is too much smell I'd probably be sneezy and allergic to my cloths.

I guess because I was super tired I also had no desire, nor did I even remember, to do my pen and paper hobby stuff. The two supplements I'm working on are almost done really, so with the nearly 3 months left before I can publish them there is plenty of time to finish.

Day 6086 - 2/28 - Migraine day

Today wasn't anything special. I did have a migraine for most of the day. Smooshed feeling head, ringing ears, eyes feeling like they are being poked. I'm not really sure why. The day was pretty ok other than that.

Day 6087 - 3/1 - Cooked-ish sandwich

Today I tried an experiment with my water heater. I did about 75% of the maximum amount, probably 12 oz, then put my roast beef slices into the hot water to see if they would cook. It browned almost immediately, but I left them in for maybe a minute. After that I quickly put the cheese on top while they were still 'hot.' The roast beef and cheese only slightly upset my tummy. It was nowhere near as bad as it normally is. And the meat dipping made a sort of au jus kind of dip to dip the sandwich in. I can't remember the last time I had roast beef, let alone with cheese. But since this seemed 'a success' I may do it more, though probably not more than every other week because I still seem a bit sensitive to it.

I am exhausted today. I did do just a tiny bit of pen and paper hobby stuff, but nowhere near as much as I would have liked to. For whatever reason I've only gotten about 5 hours of sleep the past few nights and I'm just wrecked and can't think at all. Hopefully I'll sleep better soon.

Day 6088 - 3/2 - Sniffly and tired

Today I am very sniffly, kind of sneezy, and extremely tired. I got more sleep than I have been lately, but it was still barely 6-7 hours total. Mostly I just played stuff and watched shows. I did decide to get a special treat of tiny cupcakes, so that is nice.

Day 6089 - 3/3 - Unknown Monday

Today I don't know what to expect. It's been very rainy the last day or so, so it may be raining, but I don't really expect anything for the day.

Day 6090 - 3/4 - Unknown Tuesday

Today I don't know what to expect. Hopefully I can catch up on sleep a bit. And hopefully things begin to turn back towards homeless normal.

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