Week 853
Day 5965 - 10/30 - Blurry again
Today my vision was again super blurry most of the day. It wasn't until my day was basically over and I was watching shows and 'having dinner' that it cleared up at all.
I guess I got an important thing done for my pen and paper gaming, which is super good. I'm on the last few critical things so they are difficult to think up and come very slowly. I still have until probably April, so I expect that is a ton of extra time, as I expect I'll be setting it aside to rest in the next few weeks, late November at the latest.
I guess the day was OK, but I've felt pretty sad, worried, and stressed because of my blurry vision.
Day 5966 - 10/31 - Sad blurry eye day
Today was another sad blurry vision day. It made me feel pretty sad, so I barely played or did any hobby stuff at all. I did notice after 'dinner' when I'd drunk 2/3 of a soda during that it did slightly improve, but around that time is when it normally improves anyways. Though tomorrow I may bring in extra soda and see if having one during lunch helps. Normally I have them spread out over 4-6 hours per soda, but if pounding most during a 30 minute period with food can help it would be certainly something to note and repeat. Though I'm pretty sure I tried that overload theory before and it hasn't helped.
I guess other than not being able to see and feeling pretty sad because of it, today was a fairly harmless day. I miss giving out candies to little ones, but without a home or being in class that can't happen. And at this point I think the world has changed to the point that pretty much anywhere I would have a home they don't do that anymore. And that is sad.
Day 5967 - 11/1 - Looking like rain
Today it has gotten very rainy looking. The sky has been an even grey for a few hours now. It hasn't rained yet, but it looks like it will very soon. I'm glad it didn't rain yesterday. After I did my writing I saw there were a couple of families that looked like they were out trick-or-treating.
My vision started pretty good today, but pretty rapidly dropped to the average blurriness, which is disappointing because I had maybe a theory to test until that point. So far it still seems very confusing in that I really don't know what might be causing it other than generalized stress, which I have no way to track. I've tested different foods, too much sugar, much less sugar, eating a lot at once, and eating smaller more often; nothing seems to matter. And really since it's been the last 5 years, the last 3 especially, in general my food habit hasn't really changed. And even counting the little it has, my vision clarity is still up and down pretty much the same amount. I still have 2 months left until the appointment, which still seems like a B.S. amount of time to wait for an issue related to vision.
Day 5968 - 11/2 - Maybe things to try
Today I did some more looking around about my blurry vision because in the morning it was again one of the worst days today. I guess apparently allergies can cause it, which sure, lately I've had some extremely bad allergies, so I have some pills I can try and take to see if that helps. But also lately just after 'dinner' is about when things can clear. So in the mroning I'll try having a bunch more food in calories than I normally would in the morning, and if that is connected then that might mean my vision should start to clear around lunch time instead of dinner.
I was actually going to try a sugar free 48 hour period, or as low as I can stand, and I still might, but searches today said it's extremely rare to be caused by sugar. It has to be an 'extreme overload' like in the case of diabetes or other disorders. If I recall correctly I was just off of mid-normal for my sugar level tests, so that seems very unlikely to be related.
I guess today was ok, but again due to my being so put off in mood and absolutely by my bad vision pretty much everything that I did was thrown off or ruined due to my mood. Even if I had to take allergy pills daily, or pound a bunch of extra calories in the morning, if I can do something to lessen the effects that would be good. 
Day 5969 - 11/3 - Food experiment
Today I had a sort of food experiment to see if it helped my vision. It has been kind of tough to do because my body doesn't really want to eat a lot more than normal. I would say so far I'm maybe 20-30% more calories than usual, but I really don't think it helped to a degree that I noticed. It is certainly about the best it can be these days at the moment, so there is that, but it did also just go past 3, which is typically when they start to clear up a bit. I'll probably not continue extra food tests, as it is tough to eat more calories, but maybe I'll try and note any change when I do.
Day 5970 - 11/4 - Maybe allergy pill test
Today I'll try and remember to take allergy pills and test to see if that helps my vision for a few days. Hopefully I can find something that helps as it's really affecting my mood and ability to focus, physically or emotionally.
Day 5971 - 11/5 - Unknown week
Today I don't know what to expect, nor anytime during this week. I expect things will be pretty much regular, though I am testing a few things that will hopefully give me a lead on helping my vision clear up at least a bit.
Week 854
Day 5972 - 11/6 - Not better, maybe worse
Today may be my last allergy pill experiment day. So far it has made zero noticeable impact on my vision. And it feels like most days it is not helping with things since I'm sneezing just as often. But a lot of my joins and tendons have been feeling like I'm dehydrated, even though I've been drinking as much as 50% more water than normal.
I guess today was ok though. I'm playing a game I haven't played for nearly a year. It's been early access, and still is, but it has gotten some updates, so I'm checking those out. I was hoping for weapon and talent changes, but really those were hardly touched even though I saw a video saying there was more. I guess overall it was an ok day.
Day 5973 - 11/7 - Ok day
Today was pretty ok. My vision actually started to be clearer closer to 1 than 3, though I have no clue why. IN the morning shower it was all over the place. I could see clearly when I started, then for half the shower it was blurry, then clear a bit after, then blurry again until about 10. I was tempted to do some work on my pen and paper hobby thing I'm doing, but I was really tired today. It only has a little bit left that I can probably get done in 2-4 sessions of a few hours each. My other ideas for it that are in the back of my mind have no real connection point to feel focused or put in 'just because I have extra time and feel I need to force stuff in'.
I'm still pretty sneezy and congested, so that is sad. But overall today was pretty ok.
Day 5974 - 11/8 - Food mistake
Today I made a food mistake. I've been craving chicken tenders lately and so I got some from the food store. I guess it's been so long that I forgot it has about a 65% or so chance of ending badly. My tummy and system has been low level upset all day.
I got some extra food and took in an extra soda to the library to have today to see if there was any vision change. There was not. It was still extremely bad up until now when it started to get a little bit better. I even took one contact out to compare to no contact. I'd say it was probably as low as about only a 40% improvement of what it should have been improved to. And probably the best it got all day was only 75-80%. I really don't get it. I kind of which I had glasses to test if maybe there is some kind of allergy my eyes are having with the contacts. I've been using the same brand, well, possibly as long as I've been wearing contacts, and never had this issue before 5 years ago. So while it seems very unlikely it's about all I can think of. But even that doesn't make a lot of sense unless it would require several days to clear. If it cleared overnight then I'd always have clear vision when I wake up, but I don't. Like I think Thursday it started clear, got blurry during my shower, cleared before ending the shower, then got blurry and clear like three more times during the day randomly. I really hope I get a good answer when I finally see someone in 2 months. It would be terrible if it's just how my eyes are now. Most days, like today, it is bad to the point I can't really focus and don't want to do anything while my vision is bad.
Day 5975 - 11/9 - Disappointing results
Today was a series of disappointing results. First some stupid car alarm way off in the distance was going off and woke me up probably 3 hours before my alarm. It took a while to settle down and get back to sleep. Then I had a terrible nightmare where someone had a chef's knife and was trying to threaten and kill me, cutting my limbs. So that scared me so much it woke me up about 1.5 hours before my alarm. And then there was no settling down from that, so I eventually just got up and moving earlier than normal.
I thought maybe that could offset any kind of food or time related pattern to my blurry vision, but no. I had an extra doughnut because I was so hungry, no change. I ate lunch a bit later due to not being as hungry, so I guess the extra early food was offset there, but again no change. I had dinner around the normal time, no change. I even had another crazy theory that maybe it had to do with light levels, so I wore some sunglasses for the first few hours of the day, no change.
At this point I've effectively ruled out food, wake up time, eating times, and even crazy things like geomagnetic fields or light levels (due to no change in the time my eyes clear from the old time to the new since those were an hour apart due to the time change.) At this point the only even remotely real feeling possible theory is some kind of reaction to the contacts, which even that doesn't seem very likely since old or brand new has the same result, and time I've been wearing them seems unrelated. In fact, by the time 3 comes around and it starts to clear I've usually been wearing them about 7 or more hours. So today is yet another day of trying 3-4 different ways to see if my vision clears with no results. Which means I lose all of my potentially productive or creative time to not being able to focus, physically and emotionally, and it is getting really upsetting.
Day 5976 - 11/10 - Ok so far
Today is ok so far. It's early afternoon but I did some creative stuff since I felt ok due to my vision not being completely terrible. The rest of the day is going to kind of be rushed though. I have to hurry and smoosh some stuff from tomorrow into today due to the holiday. I expect I'll only have a few hours with my laptop plugged in at most tomorrow.
Day 5977 - 11/11 - Closed day
Today lots of places will be closed. I expect the only things for sure open will be food stores and retail shops. I'll probably only get a few hours plugged in and online and that's it (since my old plug location I used to use outside the library has been removed.) Probably upwards of 6 or more hours I otherwise would be able to do stuff will be forced outside time. I'm hoping to do some pen and paper hobby stuff on my tablet, maybe some art for it, but that is pretty much all I can hope for. Hopefully things won't be too bad.
Day 5978 - 11/12 - Hopefully a regular Tuesday
Today will hopefully be a pretty regular day. I may have some stuff to catch up on I couldn't do Monday. Hopefully I will have stuff to put on my laptop that I did for my pen and paper hobby, but I don't expect really anything special or different.
