Week 875
Day 6119 - 4/2 - Upset tummy
Today my tummy is a bit upset. I ate something I'd basically stopped eating for a while. It has both red meat and cheese, both of which can upset my tummy. I guess now I am kind of paying for that. Though really these days the only thing that doesn't upset my tummy are cooked foods. Which I'm trying to sneak that once or twice a week, but outside of that, the other 5-6 days, I pretty much have to eat something that has a fair to high chance of upsetting my tummy. I really don't know what to do at this point. I guess I could maybe try soups again, but it really seems the water heater just can't get soup or ramen hot enough, and that too can upset my tummy.
I guess other than that it was a pretty good day, other than my having an overall sad feeling.
Day 6120 - 4/3 - Starving
Today I have been starving. I'm not sure why. I had my usual (lately) pot stickers for the day, but swapped a chips snack for a vegetable beef soup. So I should have had a decent amount more food than normal. But when I left the library I felt like I hadn't had dinner at all, so I got a treat of fries.
I am pretty tired, and pretty sneezy, so it's possible I have a cold and need extra food. It's been freezing lately since it was storming earlier in the week. But I had a good day playing and watching stuff, and I even spent almost 2 hours doing pen and paper stuff, so maybe I'm feeling better enough to get back to that and finish. But with how sad and unstable my life is, any small thing can push that balance off the scales again at any time. All I can do is just try my best to hang on.
Day 6121 - 4/4 - Good, but tired
Today I had a pretty good day, but I feel very tired. The food I got ran through me very quickly, so I don't know if that is due to a cold or if it was a bit undercooked. It was a pretty good day overall but I had to work on some video stuff, so that took up my pen and paper time, so I was sad I didn't get to do that. But with the 1.5 months until launch remaining I should still have plenty of time, especially if I sacrifice regular game time to really push if I need to. Hopefully I can start to feel batter and recover from my sads and other things.
Day 6122 - 4/5 - Pain in the neck
Today was pretty good. The morning got a bit ahead of schedule and I got started on my pen and paper stuff early. I thought maybe I'd do 2 hours instead of what has been one, but right around the end of that first hour I started to get a pretty bad feeling. It started at the back of my neck and quickly spread about half way down my shoulders, up the center of my skull, and down just the center of my spine. It's hard to describe, but it feels somewhere between a cramp and a sprain, sort of a dull and restricting type pain. Needless to say that threw off my mood pretty quickly, and weirdly there was a kind of rapid exhaustion that hit me around that same time. So I was no longer in a mood to do a final language check on the pen and paper stuff I was working on. I did get an hour though, which if I do that most days should have me completed by my new mid-April target. At least my two big projects, not the 3rd my brain has started working on. That one will likely take the remaining time right up until launch, though at this point that's pretty much just all lore writing.
Other than that I guess the day was pretty good. At least as good as my days get with how much I miss being in a home with regular life niceties, and having friends to do stuff along with that. For what little I have in my solo life, today was pretty ok.
Day 6123 - 4/6 - Don't feel great
Today so far I don't feel great. The shredded chicken at the food store used to be great. And while I only get it once every few weeks now, the past like 6 times have been progressively worse. I just had a few bites for lunch and my tummy is starting to not feel great. I'll try again for an early dinner later, but if I feel worse after a few bites I'll likely dump it all.
I guess I feel pretty good today emotionally. I'm sort of ahead of schedule for writing, then I'll do some pen and paper stuff, then relax with games and shows with what time is left. My neck still is very stiff, almost unable to turn, and a bit of the same with my lower back. It feels kind of like when I had a panic back seizure back when I was getting divorced, which required me be on medication and took months to recover from. But this is nowhere near as bad, so I'll probably be fine in about a week. But it is very likely too much stress in an already overly sad and stressful life.
Day 6124 - 4/7 - Unknown Monday
Today I don't know what to expect. The world still seems between cold winter rain and where it should be at warming up for summer. Hopefully my pain will be less, and I can get some sleep and feel better overall.
Day 6125 - 4/8 - Mystery Tuesday
Today I don't know what to expect at all. I don't think anything special is coming up. Hopefully I can rest and recover from some of my recent terrible extra stress and other pains.
Week 876
Day 6126 - 4/9 - Possible panic
Today has been pretty ok. I'm not too tired and I did some art and coloring stuff for my pen and paper hobby stuff that I'm working on. I actually got the first one to the point of being able to call it closed and ready for release day changes. Which may turn out to be extra important based on what was happening in the last hour I was at the library. Apparently there were several people posting shipping notices, and even pictures of the released product. Which is crazy since this is about 6 weeks earlier than the release date. These people were all in Australia.
I don't know what the company will say about it. I don't see how they cannot release early everywhere else if Australia has released copies so much ahead of launch. At the very least I'd think they would say, 'oops, sorry,' and send everyone who should be receiving a .pdf their copy of that. The decision may not be posted until the morning, but at the time I left things seemed pretty crazy.
Day 6127 - 4/10 - Australia shooshed
Today the pen and paper game company appears to have taken the possibly most difficult path of politely asking Australians who got their copy early to shoosh. They have been asked to not talk about it online and not produce any online content for it. Which... good luck with that.
In I suppose good news that means I retain my 6 weeks to finish what I've been working on. I did finish the first supplement yesterday. And today I did a big push with the second and can probably effectively finish very soon. I have just some enemies to make and that is really it. I should do a final read through, but it should be fine skipping that. Instead I'll work on some random loot and do some final layout cleaning up. I don't know that I'll have time to finish my third thing I just started. I have the core mechanics done, but really none of the lore and none of the enemies or items. It may not make it for launch on the 20th of next month. But that's ok. All three I expect will take time to be seen, if anyone cares about them at all.
Day 6128 - 4/11 - Don't feel like it
Today I am feeling pretty weird. I would say all day my skin has felt cold, as if I have chills. I'm also a touch dizzy. Emotionally I just don't feel like doing anything. I wasn't super into my games. Then after lunch I just didn't feel at all like working on my pen and paper hobby (even though since the scare of early release I am more worried about things being ready on time.) And while I watched an extra couple of shows during dinner, I didn't really feel that into them. I don't know if it's extra stress throwing me off emotionally, or if I have some kind of cold that is throwing me off. Hopefully I can recover a bit tonight and feel more regular tomorrow.
Day 6129 - 4/12 - Fast and still don't feel like it
Today moved very quickly. There was news about a game I'm sort of interested in during the morning, so I watched that for a bit. Then I blinked and it was early afternoon. I guess the day was fine, but it moved very quickly, and for whatever reason I still just wasn't into my games or being creative with pen and paper stuff. There is still a lot of congestion, sneezing, ear ringing, and tiredness, so maybe I do have some kind of cold and am being thrown off due to that. Hopefully I can recover soon.
Day 6130 - 4/13 - So tired
Today I am so very tired. I couldnt sleep last night, so I lost about 1/3 of what would have been my total sleep amount. My brain is super easily distracted today, which is fine. My pen and paper stuff is really the only thing I have 'to do'. Though there should be plenty of time to finish really. I guess tax things did sneak up on me though, but I'm $0 so no real super huge need to file. I just wanted to since they have done support funds in the past based on returns, so I want to keep that for a bit, even though at this point I don't expect more relief funds to come.
Day 6131 - 4/14 - Maybe hot Monday
Today it is supposed to be hot. It's supposed to get up to 80F. It's insane the average lately is still closer to 65-70F. It should be more like 75-80F this time of year. It's been stupid cold. And even the rest of the week right after Monday it's supposed to drop right back down.
Day 6132 - 4/15 - Unknown Tuesday
Today I don't know what to expect. Hopefully I can get rest. Hopefully I can recover from stuff if I've been sick. And hopefully I can get moving on my pen and paper stuff, as there is now basically one month left.
