Week 895
Day 6259 - 8/20 - Ok b-day
Today was an ok b-day I suppose. There was some well wishing on the social page, dad sent some monies, but that was really it. I didn't see any on sale games worth getting yet, so I can save a bit of money for that. I am considering getting a new hard shell protective bag for my laptop, as the backpack zippers are starting to pop open, but it's not too bad yet. I'm tempted to get some new headphones too, but my current ones are still mostly ok, so I don't really need to do that yet.
Overall I guess I feel ok, and got some special cooked food for my birthday, and a special dessert, so I guess today was ok.
Day 6260 - 8/21 - Brain melting
Today it has suddenly become brain melting hot. I heard someone mentioned that it was over 100F, which is super crazy.
I had some left over cooked food from last night, which was mostly ok, but wasn't the best tasting by the time it was time for dinner. My tummy does feel way better than normal, so that's good as it indicates when I can get back to regular cooked food I should recover from my tummy issues pretty quickly. Unfortunately I don't know when that might happen. Until then all I can do is try to continue to hang on.
Day 6261 - 8/22 - Cold to hot
Today there isn't much to say. The day started off cool enough, but by the mid afternoon it had gotten pretty hot again. My brail couldn't really think today, so I just messed around.
There was some sad news yesterday connected to the pen and paper game, so my desire to publish content has quickly diminished. I still don't know if anyone is really interested anyways.
I guess overall I hung on ok today, and hopefully tomorrow will be a better day.
Day 6262 - 8/23 - Feeling odd
Today I am feeling a bit odd. I might be sick. My ears have been ringing all day, and my mind is having weird echoing thoughts. It's focusing ok, but it goes off on a tangent and then the thoughts repeat. It's not something my brain usually does unless I have a fever. My tummy feels a bit off too.
I guess the day was ok other than that. Some people got some laughs at some stuff I posted on a social page, so that was nice. But really my brain just wandered and was weird, so I didn't try to accomplish anything.
It's possible my brain is just sad and stuff about Monday. The library will be closed, so I'll have to spend about 2/3 of my usual inside time forced outside. The shower place has a really good connection, so I won't be forced offline all day, but I will be a lot of the day, so that will probably be pretty sad.
Day 6263 - 8/24 - Feeling ok
Today I feel pretty ok. It's still early, so I haven't done much today, but I expect after my writing I'll do at least some hobby stuff. Hopefully I can get decent momentum back again. I do know at least a few appriciate my things, even if I don't ever hear about it.
Day 6264 - 8/25 - Mostly outside Monday
Today will probably more sad than not. Probably 2/3 of the time I would normally spend inside and online will be forced outside time in my car. Hopefully it won't be too bad. And hopefully I can hang on ok.
Day 6265 - 8/26 - Hopefully regular Tuesday
Today will hopefully be a regular homeless Tuesday. Hopefully I can recover from forced outside time. And hopefully I feel ok and can do some hobby stuff and progress towards getting it out to people. And hopefully today I will feel ok.
Week 896
Day 6266 - 8/27 - Disappointed
Today was ok I guess. I updated my site finally and did some text changes that aren't really relevant anymore. I guess due to feeling increasingly sad about PC things (in that I'm forced onto laptop), and my new pen and paper hobby stuff, I hadn't updated in basically a year. Realistically I only really need to update that part of my site 3-4 times a year at most, but still.
I am pretty disappointed about Monday though. All of last week I was pretty sad about the upcoming forced outside day. That morning I spent cash on food to get something healthier that would probably fair better outside. I spent 3 hours at the shower place, which has an ok connection, but mostly I did things I probably wouldn't have done had I had a regular day. I moved to the food store and was out in my car in borderline sweating heat. I did do some good pen and paper things, so that was good. But it was around my 2nd hour there that I was inside and noticed a sign saying the prescription area would be closed on the holiday on the 1st. I then wondered what holiday the library could possibly be doing that wasn't that and had no answer. I checked online and indeed found out that it is next Monday they were closed. I packed up and raced over to salvage what was left of my day. I wasted 5 hours of the day doing things differently than I needed to, causing myself extra stress, for no reason.
I suppose at this point I am recovered from the loss emotionally. But I wonder why I thought the holiday was this week instead of next. Am I going crazy? If I'm lucky I should have 10 to 20 years before that should be happening. Though jumbled or reversed words when I type are happening about every 2-3 days out of a week now. Did I see it on maybe the library website and just not verify the date and just assumed it was the next Monday coming since they never announce closed days more than one week in advance at the library? I may never know why, but the loss makes me sad.
Day 6267 - 8/28 - Kinda snapped
Today my back is weird. Yesterday when I got up there was kind of a snap. It's an odd place too. The muscle, I guess, along just the left side of my spine, and just about mid shoulder blade to where my hips start popped or snapped? I don't even know what muscle or tendon that would be just on that one side there.
I guess today was ok. Since I was busy doing something slow and tedious for the past week I just kind of took the day off. Nothing special happened, and my back wasn't too bad (mostly not a noticeable weirdness in that muscle as it's mostly recovered), so I guess today was pretty ok.
Day 6268 - 8/29 - It was fine
Today was fine, I guess. I didn't really feel like doing pen and paper stuff today, so I just did a bit of different game playing and watched some shows. I guess overall the day was fine.
Day 6269 - 8/30 - Terrible loss
Today was a very terrible loss. The only reason I've not broken down crying and possibly throwing up from stress is that I've been expecting this for a very long time. When I was eating lunch I heard a small snap and knew what happened. The once beautiful and beloved K9 on my top right had snapped off. 
It had lost about 40% of its side, been cracked, and was mostly gone for probably the last year or more. It's been a very long time since it was whole. But like nearly all of my teeth it was corrupt beyond saving, and it was only a matter of time until its loss. And now recently in my bottom left K9 I feel a hole, so it will likely only be a few years before it's lost as well.
Not much else to say for today, as that has ruined all of what little cheer I had. I know with how bad they all are, and nothing to save them, they will all go eventually. But it is no less sad when they do go.
Day 6270 - 8/31 - Sad distraction
Today I think I will take off to just try and distract myself from the tragedy of yesterday. There are soft of some things I could do with my pen and paper stuff, but I'm too sad. I do have to get them done eventually though. Avoiding the difficult things because they are difficult will never get them done. And I do still hope at least some people enjoy my things.
Day 6271 - 9/1 - Forced outside for sure
Today is for sure a forced outside day. I will have about 1/3 of the normal amount of online time at the shower place, so hopefully I can have at least some fun with that. But the other 2/3 of my time will be outside when I would normally be in the library. Hopefully it won't be too hot, and maybe my creative brain will be able to make some pen and paper hobby stuff to move onto the laptop later.
Day 6272 - 9/2 - Hopefully regular Tuesday
Today there isn't anything new. Hopefully it can be a regular homeless Tuesday. And hopefully I can be moving on from my recent sad tragedy.
