Week 919
Day 6427 - 2/4 - Ug tummy
Today my tummy feels pretty bad. I had cheese sandwiches and I think the combination of cheese, which is rough, and some gluten from the bread, made my tummy pretty unhappy. It was kind of upset with my choice of chips too. I wanted something different so I got mesquite BBQ and I forgot that my tummy is always kind of sensitive to that flavor. So, not great food choices overall today.
I'm upset at my class stuff lately. I still haven't finished this week and by the time I do I'll probably be hitting 6 hours with it. I mean, sure, an in class one would probably be twice that per week due to the lecture time and homework time, but I don't know. The assignments are 2-3 per week and they are 1 point each. Which is like, really? Something that takes upwards of 2 hours is one point? And if it takes longer and takes 4 it's still just one point? I guess it's mostly that which makes me feel like it's too much effort for the point value.
I guess today was still on the low side of ok. I felt icky because of the cheese sandwiches, and again got a pretty bad headache after spending a couple hours on class stuff. I guess on the good side people around me were pretty quiet and not terrible.
Day 6428 - 2/5 - Continued cake ban
Today I had the last of the cake in the morning. I was fine with it at that time. But having it for dessert in the evenings wasn't great. For the first couple of days I was fine. But then about half way through the cake I did feel a few hours of upset each time. So since I have to have so much it probably should remain banned for now. Clearly I am better than before, but not better enough to return to my previous eating habits. I'll have to stick to fewer donuts and less sandwich bread for sure.
I guess today was pretty ok. I was pretty sleepy. I had to do another stupid class assignment and I again got migraines after. I guess all in all things could have been worse.
Day 6429 - 2/6 - Yay for food money
Today I feel pretty safe regarding my food money. The change that could have affected me was set to happen on the 1st. I was pretty sure things were fine because why approve me at the end of last year if you would just cut me off a month later? Also, I'd gotten no notice since the 1st that I'd been canceled, though I didn't really expect to get one. And then today was pretty much the final confirmation as I saw my monthly amount had been put into my account on its regular cycle day. So I definitely seem safe, at least for now.
I did get apparently not the best food though. About once a month the regular food store has a $5 Friday sale for 8 pieces of chicken. Emotionally that is pretty tough to eat that much since I don't like to kill for food (even more so when that food is still recognizable as coming from a living creature; in this case still has the bones.) But since it's normally $2.50 - 3 a piece that deal is really too good to pass up if I have the cash for it. (It's hot food, so can't be bought with the food card money.) But it hasn't been great. Last time I did it, and this time, it feels like it wasn't fully cooked. Tomorrow what I have left will go into boiling water to hopefully cook it a bit more. What I am guessing is happening is that because the hot food area sits in trays they probably undercook everything, expecting it to sit and cook in the trays for possibly hours more before being bought. But because they forget that on sale days, or due to the volume being sold and speed they have to cook them, it's likely that it isn't getting the cook time it needs. I expect I'll be fine, but should probably avoid that deal in the future for those reasons.
I guess I was both happy and relaxed due to food money news, but also sad and disappointed at my stuff I've done for my pen and paper hobby still not being well received. Yes, I can say I'm a "published author" now that some purchases happened, but really at this point there are only 0-2 downloads per day, and only a few people ever give me money for them in the entire month. And, usually like today, that money is only a fraction of the suggested price. Sure, I'd have been shocked and amazed to get the $500 in sales per month that I though could happen, and I am still pretty proud that I at least got something so far, but I still can't help but feel like more people just don't care about me than do. 
And that this is yet another attempt to do something I love that will never work out. And I will simply fall into obscurity and be forgotten. 
Day 6430 - 2/7 - Tired day
Today I was pretty tired. My tummy didn't feel great for yesterday's chicken. When I did dinner I made it into a soup and that seemed much better than when I had it for lunch. Overall the day was pretty ok, but I felt very tired.
Day 6431 - 2/8 - Still tired
Today I am still tired. My brain is a bit hazy, but also has some moments of clarity that pop up. It feels a bit like spring in that some days are warming up, some critters are becoming more active. But other times it still feels like winter, and I feel very cold, slow, and tired.
Day 6432 - 2/9 - Another eye poking
Today is another eye poking. I won't have much time to do anything so I probably won't do anything of consequence. I am hoping that this is one of the last times. I think the bump is still visible, but they said it was about fully healed in terms of what they can do for it with the medicine. My vision isn't amazing, certainly not as clear as it was in my 30s, let alone my 20s, but I guess in good news I don't have many super blurry days anymore.
Day 6433 - 2/10 - Recovery day
Today will be recovery from my eye poking. I expect I'll have to do a bunch of class stuff, so I probably won't have much time for fun, so that will be sad. But hopefully I can continue to hang on.
Week 920
Day 6434 - 2/11 - Maybe cookie pains
Today I have some odd pain, yesterday too. It's pretty minor, but the weird thing is the location. It's like where my kidneys would be, but instead of my back side on my front side, which as far as I know would just be my general intestine area, so that seems weird.
I'm a touch tired, but I guess other than that and being very cold today is ok.
Day 6435 - 2/12 - Punch in the gut
Today I feel like I got punched in the gut. I guess I made a mistake in that I really wanted a hot dog from the regular food store (which is a reasonable $1.50), but after having it I felt like I'd been punched in the gut. I guess I am still extremely gluten sensitive to some things and I'm going to have to stick closer to a full ban on all of the gluten things, at least for a while. Like my recent cake test went poorly. And I really wanted some regular chocolate chip cookies, and even just 2 of those a day after a few days started to wreck me.
Today I had some extra trips for chore things, but overall I guess today was pretty ok.
Day 6436 - 2/13 - Off tummy
Today my tummy is still off a bit. I got a different lunch, and a tiny part of it maybe had gluten, and it kind of punched me in the gut for a while. Now my insides feel questionable, but I should be ok.
I did get some special everything free cookies, and they were reasonably priced, so we'll see if those work out. Currently the only for sure dessert snack I have that is gluten free is cereal, so I need to find more so I don't go insane from always eating the same thing. (Since at this point pretty much everything else is mild to high risk and I should avoid any risk at least for a while. (At the time I'm typing this in I've had half the cookies. I'd say they are ok. They seem pretty similar to cereal, but are just pretty bland despite them saying they are supposed to be like vanilla wafers. They don't upset my tummy at all, but don't really taste better than cereal.)
I guess the day is pretty ok. It is still super cold though and again looks like we are in for a longer winter, which is very sad.
Day 6437 - 2/14 - Hurting feet
Today and for a while now my feet have been hurting, like I've walked miles and miles. Checking the insert it's mostly completely flat, as is the spot on the boot's heel. They probably need to be replaced, but I don't have the probably $75 spare to do so, let alone $50 for another new special orthopedic insert. I think the original inserts I had are still in the car, so sometime when I have time and remember I'll have to see if they are still useable and not completely smashed flat. (Which they'd be as new since they were never used.) I maybe want to try some third party ones that offer arch support, but even those would be like $20.
I guess today has been pretty good. I got some orange juice with lunch and it did not at all agree with me. But other than that it's been a pretty ok day.
Day 6438 - 2/15 - Careful day
Today I would say I'm eating cautiously. After yesterday's lunch not going well I'm being pretty minimal in what I eat. It's extra rough because when I would have a bad time I'd do bread or crackers. Not only are they 'gentle' foods, but they absorbed things like grease from other foods (like the lunchmeat I pretty much have to always eat.) Since those are pretty much at the top of the ban list now, I'm having a hard time knowing what to replace them with, so really I just eat less overall. While it is probably helping a lot to lose weight short-term, obviously long-term this isn't great. I'm still hoping the gluten issue is just temporary and goes away soon.
I guess today overall is ok other than that. Nothing really special going on.
Day 6439 - 2/16 - Disrupted Monday
Today will be disrupted by the holiday. I don't know how much of what I'll have access to. Hopefully I have enough access to a connection and power to do class stuff, but I really don't know what the day will bring.
Day 6440 - 2/17 - Hopefully regular Tuesday
Today will hopefully be a regular homeless Tuesday. Hopefully my tummy is feeling more normal and I can be connected to do whatever I want or need to online and have a regular day.
