Week 897
Day 6273 - 9/3 - Too much sadness and stress
Today there is too much sadness and stress. I have low level shakes and feel like I may eventually throw up. On top of all of the sad from my tooth loss, I was told (again) that very soon (possibly in the next few days) I will have to get rid of a bunch of stuff in storage. 
I'm hoping I can consolidate down and will only need to get rid of non-critical things, like kitchen and cooking stuff, and maybe a stereo receiver, but I don't know how much will have to go. Even if it's just that any stuff I have to lose still feels like a big part of me is being lost with it.
Day 6274 - 9/4 - Upset system
Today my system was still pretty upset. Food ran straight through me. It wasn't great, but I would rather that than my tummy feel bad and upset. I was super congested today, and kind of congested in general lately. And because of fear and stress and things being unstable I felt a bit shaky and a bit like throwing up.
Yesterday I did about 2 hours of pen and paper stuff which was more of a struggle than I'd have liked, but it was some good progress. I didn't feel good enough to do anything today though, so I took the day off from that and did some extra show watching.
I suppose even though lately things have been under extra extreme stress, today wasn't so bad.
Day 6275 - 9/5 - Sad day
Today I am feeling pretty sad. I did a little bit of pen and paper stuff. I am still not seeing any support, so I feel pretty disheartened lately. But I know I don't see the reactions of everyone, especially future people, so I try to stay positive and hopeful.
Today is extra sad though because in the next couple of days I will have to clear some stuff from the storage. I am hopeful a lot of empty boxes and non-essentials like kitchen stuff will be enough to clear the needed space, but I won't know until I do it. 
It still feels like however small it is will be removing pieces of me, forever removing that part of my history. Even though I am the only one who knows that history, I think that makes it feel even more sad.
Day 6276 - 9/6 - Tummy ouch
Today there was a bit of tummy pain after I had lunch. I really don't know what happened. It lasted a few hours and pretty much wrecked what I was going to do.
I guess the day was pretty ok other than that. I got extra sleep, so that was good, but for some reason I feel very extremely tired.
Day 6277 - 9/7 - Back pain
Today, and starting in the early evening yesterday, my lower back has been hurting and stiff. I guess it's not too painful, but it is slowing my ability to get up and straighten my back.
I guess so far today is ok, but my tummy is still a bit upset. And sadly I need to start cleaning out some of my stuff in storage, which I'm sure will be very sad.
Day 6278 - 9/8 - Sad sorting
Today will probably be a big day of sorting my storage stuff. Hopefully this second day will be all I need to clear enough. Hopefully I don't have to clear out too much that makes me feel like me. I have already forgotten so much of me that is kept in storage.
Day 6279 - 9/9 - Hopefully regular Tuesday
Today hopefully I have finished the big changes in the storage and can be recovering from the extra sadness and stress it will no doubt create. And hopefully I can be feeling ok.
Week 898
Day 6280 - 9/10 - Ok with the lost
Today my system is still a bit off from all of my extra stress lately about having to lose what feels like 40% or more of all of my stuff I have in storage. But, I'm actually ok with what was lost. A surprising amount of it was boxes I didn't really need. And a few other items were super outdated, like my 1st generation DVD player from probably around 30 years ago. (Which still worked, just wasn't needed.) It was sad to give up my food processer. I have fond memories of shredding cheese for nachos, but really I think it was only about $80, so it would be pretty easily replaced. I was also sad about the stereo receiver, which worked ok even for the Blu-ray movies back in the day. But, being 25+ years old (if I'm remembering right) I'd need a new one anyways if I wanted things like HDR, 4k, and Dolby Atmos. Peeking online that would be about $200-400 to get one that was about the same power range, so not too bad as that's about what I think I paid for it back in the day. I will hold onto the old one and try and sell it though. Online they surprisingly seem to go for between $40-100. So if I can sell it and get something for it that'd be awesome. (It's in excellent condition, and has a perfect box, directions, remote, everything.)
Forced change is sad and terrible, but hopefully I have managed to hang onto the things that truly matter. And hopefully I can move it back to a home and have my things out where I can use them again where they belong.
Day 6281 - 9/11 - Upset tummy
Today was pretty good overall. Lunch was yummy, but for some reason it kind of upset my tummy. It ran through me very quickly. I may be sick overall from residual stress and a lot of kicked up dust. I feel like I've got some heat stroke, stressed and dehydrated system, and haven't been sleeping well overall. Maybe I have a bit of a cold.
There was a new game released today that I've been looking forward to. It's been pretty fun and a nice distraction from the horrible grind of my regular shooter.
Overall today was pretty ok. Though I feel not great in my system overall and have a fair bit of exhaustion.
Day 6282 - 9/12 - Exploded video channel, again
Today my video channel was exploded for no reason, again. There was something weird I noticed that started two weeks ago where nothing I was saying in live chat was registering. So it's possible the problems started two weeks ago. Really I see zero reason I'd have violated anything to warrant blowing me up, but it seems unlikely any person will see it to verify nothing is wrong and recover it.
Day 6283 - 9/13 - Hilarious reversal
Today I am deciding what to do about my video channels. In a bit of a hilarious result, since I noticed I could still re-appeal the original channel, both were reversed and restored. So now I have both active again. I think, for clarity, I'll put up a 'moving' notice on the old one, purge newer stuff off of that one, move anything worth recovering to the new one that I didn't previously have a backup of, and then in like 3-6 months delete the old to avoid confusion.
My car insurance may be getting an angry call soon. Last year it was like $100 more than before. This year it has increased another $75. That's just over a 50% increase in the past 2 years. It seems unacceptably high now since the yearly cost is 30% of its bluebook value.
I guess other than that I'm ok. I'm having fun with my new game and my tummy doesn't feel too bad lately. I do have another eye poking Monday, which that is never fun, but with the exploding reversal things seem closer to back to homeless normal.
Day 6284 - 9/14 - Fee BS
Today has been good and not great so far. I had a tough time sleeping last night, but got an ok amount of sleep total. Though I did have very sad and bad dreams that are still troubling me. I got to be in the ex-garage, so that was good, but had to do some chores and more sad storage stuff, so currently I'm pretty exhausted.
I took a look at my car insurance stuff and there was a notice about minimums changing in California, so there is some 300 fee for property damage, and nearly all the rest are related to the new minimums. I have all of the optional things off, but it still seems ridiculous that 2 years ago it was around $350 and now it's close to $525.
As always, I just have to try and let these stressful things go, especially since I can't control them. And I have to try to enjoy what things I have left.
Day 6285 - 9/15 - Another eye poking
Today will pretty much be a regular day, but only for a brief period. Then there is a terrible eye poking appointment. Hopefully it's getting better, but I'm not really sure from what I'm seeing. And if it's not, hopefully I can stop. These are always super terrible and traumatic, and at times pretty painful due to a reaction I have to one of the medicines.
Day 6286 - 9/16 - Hopefully regular Tuesday
Today hopefully will be a regular homeless Tuesday. Nothing really to say, but hopefully I can be recovering from recent stress and sadness.
