Week 931
Day 6511 - 4/29 - Weird tummy
Today my tummy has started feeling weird. I don't know how to describe it other than it feels similar to a bit of hunger pain, but 90% of the effect is just on the sides (not the middle), which is very strange. I did notice the lunch meat I got yesterday had a few pieces with weird shiny and darker brown spots compared to the rest of it. I removed what I could but by the time I noticed I was only able to check about 4 of the 12 pieces. The rest was eaten. When I got the package I verified the date was not this month or soon, so it should have been fine, but this is a weird feeling.
Speaking of that, I checked all the things at the food/stuff store and indeed nearly everything was 25-40% cheaper than the regular food store. The only things which weren't were cereal and cookies, which was the same. So unless I need something the food/stuff store doesn't sell I'll probably do most of my shopping there now.
I still feel pretty sad today, and overall, so things aren't great. I did do some pen and paper stuff, but only about 30 minutes worth. I still feel like my sad mood would ruin or drag on any work. Doing bad creative work isn't worth doing since I would have to redo a lot of it later. Hopefully these extra sad feelings clear soon.
Day 6512 - 4/30 - Unexpected
Today had a couple of unexpected things. In the morning I checked the stuff/food store for a yummy strawberry pack and they had them. (Tuesday they were barely any.) And that cost literally half of what my previous regular food store would have charged. So I have yummy dessert for 2-3 days for super cheap.
In the afternoon I finally was motivated and ok feeling enough to do stuff for my pen and paper game. I thought I'd finish what I had quickly, but at 1.5 hours I was barely half done. There was a lot more I hadn't created in my head, and there was formatting to do, so all that extra time makes sense.
Leaving the library apparently my left leg is now broken and the tendon is acting up again. I can barely walk. So I'm hobbling around. It may be time to consider getting a cane, far sooner than expected, and on the opposite leg as I expected. It comes and goes though, so hopefully in a day or two it will clear up.
That mystery pain from last night probably was very light food poisioning (not the store's fault.) As it got later in the night it moved from just the sides to the front and started to feel similar to a gluten overdose where it felt like clay in my tummy and that the muscles were strained/punched. It's now clearing up so I almost forgot about it. Hopefully soon it will be back to normal.
Day 6513 - 5/1 - A bad eye poking
Today was another eye poking. Though I wanted to finish the pen and paper stuff I had left over, I didn't want to be pressed on time. I'd have only right around 3 hours at the library for everything, so I left finishing that for a day I won't have to be constantly checking the clock for when I'd need to leave early.
I guess it went ok (edit; later there was much pain.) It hurt quite an extreme lot, but the resident didn't do the extra numbing poke, and the eye pressure was much higher than normal. It's been 13-17 so far, but was way up at 24. Which is actually still barely in normal range, but very weird it was so much higher than normal, especially with the left eye still being around 13.
Hopefully tomorrow will be back to a regular homeless day, and maybe I can be in the mood to finish the pen and paper stuff I had left over.
Day 6514 - 5/2 - Upset eye
Today my poor eye is very upset. Last night there was a fair amount of burning, so I probably lost 1/3 of a night's sleep. Then in the morning it was still super light sensitive and being in the light I immediately started hard squinting and tearing up, so I had to have my sunglasses on and the bad eye had a paper towel over it. Things didn't calm down enough to take the paper towel and glasses off until I was settled in at the library. And even then it was about 3 more hours for things to settle enough to put my contact in.
Now at a few hours past 24 hours since the poking I still can't see right. The floater is even more in my view, and now things look like just a big blob of transparent gray. It's impossible to focus because it's like it's in 3d (which obviously it is) and my focal point is trying to focus on like 3 different points. SO it's all kinds of hazy and unfocused. There is no way I can do anything 'real' with my day.
Hopefully tomorrow things will be settled more and closer to normal, but it may be into Monday before I can have most of my visual clarity back. And, of course, I don't expect to have full clarity back until the floater is gone, which sadly could be a very long time. At least the good news is with a very thorough check and re-check the resident doc was certain it wasn't glaucoma. So we just have to wait for it to pass, though I will be very worried if it remains as bad as it is when we get to mid next week.
Day 6515 - 5/3 - Super bad eye day
Today has been a super bad eye day so far. It's early afternoon now and I am still covering my bad eye with both sunglasses and a folded paper towel. While the blurriness may be clearing (can't tell with it covered), it is way way too sensitive to light today. Even my good eye is more sensitive than normal. It has gotten to the point I could barely remove the paper towel, but I have to keep it covered. So given the option of closed with no towel, or open with a towel, I'll take open with a towel, as that seems overall less painful and troublesome. Hopefully in a few hours I can at least take these off. I don't know if it will feel ok enough to have my contact put in too, but honestly just not having the cover and sunglasses would be good enough.
I am still super worried something is wrong, and worse that the new damage may be irreversable, but honestly at this point I've been poked in the eye enough that I know symptoms can last up to 3 days. So if things are still bad and unusual on Tuesday I'll start to worry. And I'll try my best to not worry before that.
At least it shouldn't be glaucoma at all. I watched a short video on how it works and how it progresses, and not only does the vision not match, but it's something that can normally take yeas. So apparently happening effectively overnight seems impossible. But again, at this point I'm trying to stay as calm as I can and not worry until Tuesday.
Day 6516 - 5/4 - Probably nothing Monday
Today I probably won't be able to do anything. With my eye recently being fully out of commission even playing games or watching shows is difficult. There is no way I could focus on even some lighter tasks like hobby creativity to do pen and paper stuff or even drawing.
Day 6517 - 5/6 - Hopefully out of the woods
Today I am hopefully out of the woods and the extreme eye pain and light sensitivity I've been having is over. Hopefully my eye can begin to continue to try to heal the main issue instead of the trauma of the medicine poking. And hopefully I can try to do some creative work.
Week 932
Day 6518 - 5/7 - Super super sick
Today and pretty much since the weekend I've been super super sick. I've got chills, so I feel like I'm freezing and shaking all the time even though I'm not, and a ton of congestion and sneezing. I don't feel great in general in terms of when I'm eating things, likely due to all of the congestion.
My eye poking was pretty bad. It was one of the most painful ever. I don't necessarily blame the doc because he was a resident and my eye pressure registered way higher than usual, and he didn't do a pre-injection that numbs things, so I can't rule those out as a factor. But if it's super high pressure next time I may request to see if I can see the main doc if she's around because I've never had problems with her before.
My floater is still the worst ever too. It's like 85% of my vision. It still for sure seems like just a floater blocking my vision issue, but it is seriously messing with my ability to focus and see clearly.
Hopefully I can recover and at least be a little better tomorrow.
Day 6519 - 5/8 - Maybe slightly better
Today in the past few hours I've maybe started feeling better. My nose seems to be drying up a bit, and my lungs don't feel quite as raspy. I still feel freezing cold with chills. I still don't feel great in my tummy (though I'm barely eating), and I'm still coughing and sneezing up yuck. But it's maybe a touch better, so hopefully if I can get decent sleep tonight I will be on my way to feeling better tomorrow.
Day 6520 - 5/9 - Relapse
Today if I was feeling better, I've for sure relapsed. I have felt pretty much the worst today. All last night I had horrible fever dreams where the same like 2 minutes of dream repeated over and over. And no matter how much you struggle to control your subconscious and change the dream you can't break the pattern. I've felt pretty warm to the touch and very headachey all day. Even though I felt warm outside, inside I felt like I was super freezing cold with chills all day.
I do think maybe the floater in my bad eye is getting slightly better, so maybe in a few weeks I'll have some improvement.
But overall the day passed quickly, and even though I felt like I wanted to do pen and paper stuff I still felt way too sick to do any.
Day 6521 - 5/10 - Sicker than I thought
Today I am apparently sicker than I thought. I settled in at the library expecting to do some stuff with guildies online, but the thought of doing a faster game with a lot of motion just didn't sound great to my sick brain, so I mostly just played my casual game I've been playing which has much less motion. Even then though a lot of the day my attention was just not there. My attention span shortened to about 5 minutes, or maybe less, because several times I would start doing something, get slightly distracted, then would completely forget what I was doing.
It was disappointing. I guess things are going in waves now. One minute I start to feel better and I start to plan what pen and paper things I want to do, and even start having new ideas for areas I need to work on, and the next I have massive headaches, feel like I'm sitting on a waterbed and everything is constantly sloshing around, and the next I'm freezing cold with chills and fever and just generally completely exhausted.
All I can do I guess is hope things start to recover and I can get well soon.
Day 6522 - 5/11 - Forgetful
Today my brain almost totally forgot to do the writing. The book has been in my view all day, but because of my cold and my attention span of about 5 minutes it has felt like no time has been passing. Plus I think my brain thought that I did it first thing in the morning and it's already been done. Hopefully I can get over my cold soon.
Day 6523 - 5/12 - Hopefully a little better
Today hopefully I will be a little better. I still feel like I'm wavering between a bit better and worse. I suppose mostly I feel ok for being sick, it could be worse, but it's very annoying and disruptive.
Day 6524 - 5/13 - Hopefully starting to be better
Today hopefully I'll be getting better if I haven't yet. Hopefully I can do my pen and paper stuff I've had to put off due to my cold forever.
