Week 925
Day 6469 - 3/18 - Headache and tired
Today started pretty good. I was pretty awake and alert, and wanted to play some stuff. But I couldn't because I had a final I had to do, and I know the sooner that is basically done the sooner I can not worry about that class. But after I finished I had a headache and felt really tired. I don't know why, but pretty much every assignment has made me feel that way.
It wasn't too bad though. My final is basically finished. Unless I get some good ideas on how to make it more fun, that is mostly it for the class. And I still had time to watch a couple of shows, so that was nice to try and relax with that.
I don't know what tomorrow will bring. I should probably get back to trying to finish the two pen and paper ideas I've been trying to finish for the last past like 6 months. Then I may see if I have ideas for a different system. There may be a different reaction to my work with a different system, I don't know.
But today was pretty good, class productive, and a little restful, though I may still be sick.
Day 6470 - 3/19 - Early bun day gift
Today was pretty good. There is a Spring sale going on where I get most of my games and the fun demo I played the other day is on sale, so I spent some early money for an early bun day gift for myself.
Nothing really going on besides that. I have a pretty bad headache. But overall I feel ok. I took the day off to be restful, so hopefully that helped fight off whatever cold this is.
Day 6471 - 3/20 - Still sick feeling
Today I am still pretty sick feeling. I took decongestants, so maybe I feel less congested. But I am still coughing a bit, extremely tired and exhausted, headaches, and though food seemed ok, it ran through me quickly.
I just rested and tried to recover today. I was going to do a class thing, but forgot. It's probably fine to do tomorrow or the next day. It's nothing super huge. But hopefully I can get over this cold. I'm tired of being tired and having congested lungs and a bit of a wheeze.
Day 6472 - 3/21 - Still symptoms
Today I still have symptoms of being sick. My lungs are still a bit congested and I can feel it when I cough a couple of times an hour. I have to do my inhaler every 6 or so hours or I get wheezy. My ears are ringing a little. And I am still pretty tired.
Though it was a pretty good day. I got distracted with a bit of class stuff in the morning, which was fine. That is effectively done. I may do some minor tweaks before turning in the final version, but at this point I'd be surprised if I spend more than 1-2 more hours on it. And then the rest of the day I tried to be restful and had fun playing and then watching a couple of shows.
I am glad I can at least have a bit of fun with my days. There is so much stress and sadness in my life it would be unbearable if I couldn't do at least a little fun. So I am very glad I have fun things at the moment. Though I often still feel sad wondering how much longer my nice things will last, and how much longer I can last under this constant extreme stress and strain.
Day 6473 - 3/22 - Feeling crowded
Today I am suddenly feeling crowded. I'm at a table that is barely 3'x3' and have been sitting here for maybe 3 weeks now and never had anyone ask to sit here until now. I don't know why she asked. My stuff takes like 3/4 of the table unless I smash down. I hope she doesn't stay long. She has a kid's book, so I expect she has a kid at home waiting for her.
Hopefully today will be ok later. My tummy is upset at the food I got, so I don't know how happy it will be later when I have it for dinner, let alone for lunch tomorrow. I may have to abandon it and get something more basic (it's greasy and acidic.) But all I can do is try to hang on and hopefully the rest of today will be ok in time.
Day 6474 - 3/23 - More eye poking
Today is another eye poking. Hopefully we are almost done with that. I get so worried, sad, and stressed when it happens.
Day 6475 - 3/24 - Maybe last class thing
Today will maybe be my last thing for class. Then I technically have an associates in graphic design. I think I'll technically have one class for an associates in film too, but the class I'm missing is about a $150 investment in materials costs, $75 for the class, and possibly $15 for parking, so I don't know if I'll find the money for that anytime soon. Finding the $75 and $15 for classes every 4 months has already been tough enough.
Hopefully the day will be calm, restful, and I can continue to try to recover from this cold. Then soon hopefully I can get back to trying to do stuff with my pen and paper publishing.
Week 926
Day 6476 - 3/25 - Yesterday
Today is actually yesterday. Or I guess from the perspective of reading, today is tomorrow. I forgot to write on Wednesday, so it is Thursday for me.
Nothing specially happened, at least I don't remember anything special. I probably got thrown off on days due to my eye poking on Monday. I did mostly take the day off I think. I have been super sneezy and sick, so my brain is barely working, so trying to do anything creative, or that takes any actual thought would not go well now.
Day 6477 - 3/26 - Dodge
Today really nothing special happened other than needing to dodge a dozen things while driving my car. First someone almost backed up into me in a parking lot because they weren't looking at all. Then a late teen nearly walked out into the street in front of me and I had to swerve and hit my breaks a bit because she apparently wasn't looking at all. Then half a dozen cars in two different parking lots were just driving all kinds of stupid, like in the middle of the lane, swerving over into the other lane to suddenly swerve back into a parking space, and other stupid things that all nearly hit me.
Really the day was pretty regular besides that. I'm basically taking time off trying to relax and recover for my cold until probably Wednesday. Then hopefully I'll be back in a good brain space to try and do pen and paper things again. I considered trying Monday, but Tuesday is some farmer holiday and the library is closed, which seems super weird since that's never been a thing before. I should be able to be ok and have a proper signal and power all day though at the place I shower, but because it's not my usual place that will likely throw off my brain and I likely won't be able to focus. So the hopeful day is Wednesday. Though I still really don't seem to be getting much love for my efforts. And I'm nowhere near the income to support my homeless life for a month, let alone longer like I'd hoped. All I can really hope is that people are enjoying it and having a good time, even though I can still see almost no evidence of it.
Day 6478 - 3/27 - Stupid cold
Today I am even more congested from my stupid cold. I'm coughing up a little yuck sometimes, which I guess should be a good sign? I think the saying is you are fighting it off if you are doing that. I was sneezing like crazy in the morning too. It was kind of non-stop in my car before the library opened, and then for the first hour or so that I was there. Thankfully their filtered air helped calm down my sneezing, though my congestion remains pretty bad.
Day 6479 - 3/28 - Morning scare
Today in the morning I had a big scare. I've been a bit nervous and shaky all day, and likely will be pretty shaky for at least a few more days until it seems things are generally unchanged and ok. Though I won't really feel 'confident' that things should be 'homeless normal' for up to about two weeks of things being back to normal patterns.
I tried to rest and relax and recover both from my recent cold and the stress from my life in general and the extra sadness of the morning. Hopefully I will be ok and things will seem normal in the coming days, but for the moment things seem sad and uncertain.
Day 6480 - 3/29 - So tired
Today I am super tired. My eyes and eye area is puffy and feels bad. Last night there was still some weirdness and wobbly, so I couldnt start my regular night things until several hours later than normal. And I'd be lucky if I got even just 6 hours of sleep, though I probably got less.
I don't know what to hope for today. My lungs are super congested and I'm coughing, so I got some decongestants at the store, though they barely ever work for me. But I'll try and hope they help. I will likely have zero brain function due to my cold, extra stress, loss of sleep, and overdosing on decongestants, but hopefully it can be a calm and restful day.
Day 6481 - 3/30 - Hopefully Monday off
Today is hopefully going to be a good day off. I really don't have anything planned or special going on, but expect I'll still be pretty sick and stressed from the recent wobbliness putting things into a less safe state for me at night. But hopefully time at the library will be restful and calm.
Day 6482 - 3/31 - Displaced Tuesday
Today I will be displaced due to the farmer holiday thing. Which is super weird because the closest farms are probably 50 miles from here. Which I guess is close, but there has never been this holiday before. I don't know if it's just a library day off or for real semi celebrated national thing, but I've never heard of it before. Hopefully today will be calm and restful even though it can't be at the library in my usual spot. And maybe tomorrow I can try to continue some pen and paper stuff.
