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Epic Fail: The Journal of a Homeless Gamer
Book 14: Distant Memories

This is my journal I wrote during the time I was homeless. It is broken up by week for easier reading. Feel free to read it on the web or download the complete .pdf version and print it for reading offline.

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Week 693

Day 4845 (V:569) - 10/6 - Winter pants

Today I have regular pants and long underwear on underneath. I was probably just about right inside the library and outside. My jaw hurts a little, so I may have been a bit cold and clenching my teeth a bit in the library, but I'll pay attention to that in the future. If it keeps happening I'll add more layers.

Outside it was pretty cold. The sky actually turned gray, about half way to night level dark, by about 3 PM. It looks like if it gets much darker it will start to rain. Rain by tonight wouldn't surprise me.

I guess I'm feeling a bit better from my cold. I'm still tired. My eyes still hurt. And my ears are still ringing quite a bit.

There was a new sign at the food store about E.B.T.. It didn't really say anything, but I wonder if that means they are allowing hot food purchases now. I keep forgetting to check on that. If they do I will definitely get some soups maybe twice a week, and every few weeks maybe a fancy Chinese food dinner. Though they are ridiculously priced there, charging like $11 for what I can get at the fast food place for about $9. If I waited until the hot food area was closing though they put out pre-made ones on sale for $5 and then that's a good deal.

I guess overall today was pretty ok.

Day 4846 (V:570) - 10/7 - Itchy ears

Today I have a very odd sensation. My ears are itching on the inside, where there is the ear canal, but like deeper. I don't know if I've ever felt that before. They are ringing a lot. Not super loud, or otherwise painful, just a constant low ringing.

I guess today was pretty good. The library was just a touch chilly. I wonder if maybe they are actually putting the heat on. The building is supposed to be smart and automatically do that, but I really don't think it does. At the very least it's never done a good job of it.

I had fun in my games today, though lately there hasn't been much to watch. Some shows I was watching I lost interest in. And a couple of shows I like to watch are on break.

I think I found out what the signs were about at the food store. I did a quick search last night and found that the food store now allows online orders with the food stamps card. So, not hot food news, or something important to me, but I guess important for some.

But I guess today I don't miss the things I don't have too much, so I survived ok.

Day 4847 (V:571) - 10/8 - Still itchy inside

Today my ears are still itchy inside, though not as much. I maybe should check online if that is a sign of something I should worry about. It's probably not, but with how little I can control anything I worry about the smallest things.

I was pretty chilly today in general. I may add another under layer to be warmer. The warmth of summer is rapidly changing to winter.

I had a pretty good day today. I played online things with some people from the stream I watch, so that was super fun. And I had fun in my game. I didn't meet a goal I had for my new game, but it's fine, as with any MMO you should be playing for the journey, not specific levels or loot. As long as I'm having fun, specific goals aren't really that important.

I'm pretty tired, and pretty cold, and getting very worried about my not having money for upcoming bills or even gas, but today was a pretty good day.

Day 4848 (V:572) - 10/9 - Still no fries

Today ended a bit sad. I went to the fast food restaurant I can use my food stamps card at and the machine still isn't working. That is like three times in the past few weeks I've tried to get fries and couldn't. I guess it's more than just me trying to use the card because they had a sign posted saying the machine is down 'today'. Hopefully they fix it soon. I have no other way to get special / cooked foods.

Day 4849 (V:573) - 10/10 - Surprisingly warm

Today I wore my extra hoodie and sweats, expecting to be cold all day. And the morning did start out very cold, but by noon I was starting to get pretty warm. At around 1:30 or so I took them off, and an hour later I was even considering taking off my regular hoodie. But I decided not to, as it would only be a few hours before I left, and a few hours after that it would start to be getting cold again.

Today was actually pretty good. I played my games, maybe too much. My brain wanted to take a break and watch some stuff, but there wasn't anything I could think of to watch.

But I still feel a bit bad, I guess from my cold. My ears are still a bit itchy inside, I have had a few sneezes, my eyes hurt from headaches, my ears are ringing, and I'm suuuppper exhausted. And though I'm not really hungry I have a craving for pasta type things; spaghetti, lasagna, even pizza. I'm not really sure what's up with that, but I'd guess it's something to do with the noodles and maybe the sauce.

But today was a pretty good day I suppose. And tomorrow will pretty much be the exact same I expect. So hopefully I continue to hang on ok.

Day 4850 (V:574) - 10/11 - More sick

Today I'm feeling more sick. Last night I felt like my skin had chills, but I felt like I had a bit of a fever inside. My ears are ringing a lot. When I cough, yuck comes out. And I've got a low level dizziness, not enough to affect my balance, but it feels like I'm not quite stable. My eyes still hurt too. I took a multi-vitamin, so hopefully that will help.

It's pretty cold again, and there is a wind that's blowing dust everywhere. I'm cold even in my extra hoodie, so I may leave the spot outside a bit earlier than usual to spend extra time in my car. (The library is closed today.) I expect sealed inside would maybe even be a bit warmer since there wouldn't be wind. I probably won't leave too early though, maybe 1-1.5 hours earlier than usual.

I'm having a pretty good time with my games. I do kind of still feel like taking a break and just watching stuff, but there is nothing to watch. But that's not surprising, as I always feel less like playing games when I'm sick.

Hopefully I can rest and recover soon enough.

Day 4851 (V:575) - 10/12 - Hopefully better

Today will hopefully be better. Hopefully I'll feel better. Hopefully I'll recover more inside the library. Hopefully I'll be warmer. And hopefully overall things will be better.

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