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Epic Fail: The Journal of a Homeless Gamer
Book 16: Different Paths

This is my journal I wrote during the time I was homeless. It is broken up by week for easier reading. Feel free to read it on the web or download the complete .pdf version and print it for reading offline.

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Week 789

Day 5517 - 8/9 - Still pretty hot

Today it is still pretty hot outside. I think it got up in the mid 80s even though the weather said it was supposed to be cooler.

Not much to say for today. I am trying for something in my new shooter, so I played a bit too much because I wanted to spend more time in my new role playing game I've had early access in for a few years that's finally actually released. I guess last time I played it I was on my 17" and in the time since then my eyes have gotten older as the UI feels much too small now and I don't remember that being the case before. There is no way to zoom, so there are times I literally can't focus to read quick text in time

I guess the day was pretty good, though last night was pretty terrible since I didn't get to sleep until nearly 3.

Day 5518 - 8/10 - Upset tummy

Today and actually for a few days I've had an upset tummy. I'm not sure what is going on. I think a couple of days ago I ate some bad chicken or something. I'll have to be gentle for a few days because right now it just doesn't feel like eating much.

I guess it was a pretty good day other than that. I played my games and had fun, but felt a little lonely. It was still hotter than expected outside, but it wasn't too bad. But I still hope things will get better someday.

Day 5519 - 8/11 - Cooler, sleepy

Today things are much cooler. I am very extremely sleepy though. I don't know why, but I didn't fall asleep last night until sometime after probably 3. It was very sad. I wasn't uncomfortable, or too cold, or too hot. Maybe it's the thing with my tummy. It still feels a bit off, like it's upset all the time, but not in a grumbly kind of way.

Overall the day was pretty good, but I hope to get more sleep and feel better in the morning.

Day 5520 - 8/12 - Tired day

Today I am pretty tired. I don't know if it has to do with my tummy weirdness or not. That is still going on. It may be from the salami I've been eating because it feels pretty acidic and greasy. Hopefully that stops soon. For sure I'm going to stop eating that though.

I got to sleep in today too. I fell asleep at a reasonable time. I may have gotten as much as 9 or maybe even 10 hours, so I'm not sure why I'm so tired feeling. But hopefully I can get more extra sleep tonight and feel better tomorrow.

Day 5521 - 8/13 - Pretty tired

Today I am still pretty tired. I got average sleep in terms of hours, but didn't fall asleep until after 2.

I guess it was a pretty ok day. I felt a bit less like playing due to my tummy still being upset, as well as being very tired, and it was still pretty hot too. But things were ok other than that.

Day 5522 - 8/14 - Unknown Monday

Today I don't know what to expect. I hope my tummy issues go away. It's not terrible, just been a low level kind of upset. But it's been going on for nearly a week, so it hasn't felt great. Mostly it makes me not feel like eating and puts my mood off, so I guess it's not the worst. But there have been a few times where I feel just a little like I might throw up. I may have to just eat crackers or bread for a day and avoid regular food and see if that helps.

Day 5523 - 8/15 - Hopefully ok Tuesday

Today hopefully I will feel better and not have any real worries. Maybe I'll remember to check on the blood test stuff. It's still bugging me, and it would be great to see clearly all the time. I can't remember how many years it's been since I could, which is why I kind of doubt just taking pills will fix it. In general that's not been how my life goes.

I don't know what to expect for today, but hope things are ok.

Week 790

Day 5524 - 8/16 - Way too hot

Today it was way too hot. In the hot times my brain couldn't think. I think it's messing up my body too, as I've been very acidic in my tummy for a while now.

I guess in the not hot times my day was pretty regular. I played my games and watched shows and tried to have fun. I had a headache most of the day though, probably again due to the heat. I guess the time it cooled down was pretty short, because it feels just as hot, if not hotter now.

Day 5525 - 8/17 - Two hour rule

Today I feel a bit better. I'm still pretty sleepy, but it wasn't too hot today. I read about this 'two hour rule' with cooked food being out. I wonder if that is maybe why I don't feel as good in the summer when I am eating more lunchmeat and pre-cooked food. I guess you aren't supposed to eat cooked things past 2 hours. On an average day I'll get my day's food at around 8, so even by lunch time it's nearing the 2 hours that it's not been refrigerated. So I guess I'll try to eat dinner sooner and keep food overnight less often. (Though I don't really keep things overnight during the summer.)

I guess it was a good day, but I hope things calm down more and my tummy continues to feel better.

Day 5526 - 8/18 - Feel maybe happy

Today I am maybe feeling a bit happy. There was a time I was humming for no reason, which I haven't done in forever. I would guess it is mostly due to a lack of pain more than anything else. I haven't mentioned it, but for a few days I've had some pretty extreme, almost crying levels, of tooth pain. Today, at least for the moment, that seems gone. So I think in the absence of pain my brain thinks I'm happy.

I guess overall the day was pretty good, and it cooled down a bit, though it was still in the early 80s. So things seem not as bad today.

Day 5527 - 8/19 - Tired

Today I feel pretty tired. I think in part that is because the tooth pain is back a bit. I'm also a bit hungry. I guess I didn't have enough food. I have chips and crackers, so I can still have that to be less hungry.

I guess today was pretty ok, though I didn't feel much like playing. Maybe it was the pain or the tiredness. I still did play, but certainly not as much as I could have.

Day 5528 - 8/20 - Alone birthday

Today felt a bit sad. I did get some b-day well wishes and a surprise gift, but other than that it felt pretty lonely. I didn't think I'd say that I would rather have had a bunch of people over for a party (if I had a house to do so), but maybe a something would have been nice, though I'm not sure what.

I was very tired, probably from not falling asleep until 2-3 last night. And my eyes were having one of their worst vision days, so I could barely see, so overall that may have made things feel sadder. I didn't feel like playing my regular games that I'd play, so I spent a good chunk playing something that I haven't played in 5 years. I don't know that I'd say I'd make a return, as there was an insane number of bots, and it didn't seem very fun because of it. Also, even though a couple of things were new, it mostly felt exactly the same as it did when I last played about 5 years ago. I'll play a bit more casually over maybe the next week and decide. I may wind up just leaving it again for exactly the same reasons as I did back in the day.

The library was basically freezing, and it was decently warm outside, so I guess basically the usual weather for summer. My food didn't disagree with my tummy, so I guess that is something. But I wish I could get 4 more hours of sleep. And I wish I could see clearly.

Day 5529 - 8/21 - Hopefully a shower

Today I will hopefully get a shower. Often in the past this is about when school tends to completely shut down and lockup for about a month. For sure I can't expect to micro, so if I can just shower that would be fine. I won't know for sure until I get there in the morning.

Day 5530 - 8/22 - Hopefully blood call

Today I will hopefully put in my call for my blood check stuff. I only have a few chances a week, as I've assumed that if I miss pretty much right near opening time then I'll have to wait on hold forever, and with my 30 minute a month plan (before I have to pay extra) I'd like to avoid burning up extra time.

But hopefully today I'll have gotten ok sleep. Hopefully I won't be too hot or too cold or too hungry. And hopefully I can get progress towards maybe getting something to clear up my vision.

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