Week 807
Day 5643 - 12/13 - Dead day
Today was, as I guessed it would be, pretty dead at school. There was maybe 1/4 or fewer people during off-peak times, and the peak never really happened. Usually during finals week it's like most show up for their test, then leave, and don't have more than one test a day. I guess that is one good benefit of the vastly outdated "finals schedule" that rearranges all of the class times.
I finished all my class stuff already, so was just hanging out all day, as I will tomorrow (after possibly my last shower for a while.) It was pretty cold for some reason. Which is weird because I think the spot I usually sit at is right under a heat vent. But I guess I got through today, and it wasn't too bad.
Day 5644 - 12/14 - Basically no one
Today there was basically no one in the cafeteria. I'd guess looking around the area there were probably never more than a dozen people at any given time. It was a good thing I wasn't planning on any special meal because they closed the cooking area gate at around 12:30, which means they probably stopped cooking things by 11:30. Sure, I normally eat between 10:30-11, so I probably would have been safe, but there was no warning signs they were going to close early today.
I felt pretty sad today. I don't really know why. Maybe due to this being the last day of the quarter. Maybe due to my ex who was in a crash having surgery today, so I'm extra worried and reminded of injury and death. I'm not really sure. I didn't do much playing because I just felt a bit sad.
I guess it was an ok day. It was very quiet (for the cafeteria) since no one was around. I was still colder than I expected to be. But I guess overall today was pretty good.
Day 5645 - 12/15 - Coughing guy, again
Today was mostly ok other than one part where I rapidly got really mad. I think around 3 that old guy who was coughing every 10 seconds came back and sat at my table. I rapidly got more mad and scared over about 5 minutes at which point I couldn't stand it anymore. As composed and politely as I could I said something like, 'if you can't keep your cough under control I would really appreciate it if you don't sit near me, because you are really making me extremely nervous.' I'm not sure he spoke a lot of English as he pointed at his throat and made some questioning noise. And I was like, 'yeah, your constant cough is making me really worried you have covid.' Thankfully he got up and went to the next table over without a fuss. But yeah, I'm not going to let someone sit near me who is literally coughing and clearing their throat with fewer than 10 seconds between episodes. That is not safe.
Other than that I guess it was an ok day. Dad said he sent Xmas money, so now that I've got a month off I decided to do a 'winter of shows' and activated a streaming service for a month. I think there are only like 6 seasons of stuff I have to catch up on, which are usually around 6-8 episodes each, at typically 45 minutes or less each, so watching 2-3 a day I should easily have plenty of time to see everything. I may even have extra time to find more. So I guess today was pretty good.
Day 5646 - 12/16 - Cold
Today the only thing of any significance was how cold the library was. I seriously don't get how it can be so cold and people don't complain. I had all my layers on, including double hoodies, and was still cold.
I guess the day was ok other than that. Though I did maybe feel a bit sad about my things, and so I spent more time watching stuff than playing.
Day 5647 - 12/17 - Rain and sun
Today is a bit of weird weather. It started warmer than usual, with no frost on the car at all. Then from about 11-1 it was pouring rain. It's only mid-afternoon now, but I wouldn't be surprised if it started raining again after it gets dark.
I've been super sneezy and tired lately. Earlier I'd bet it was due to allergies from outside, but now the library is flooded with teens, probably studying for finals. So now it's likely due to perfume allergies.
I guess today was pretty ok, though I felt a bit lonely and sad still. I think it's nothing really wrong beyond what's normally wrong, probably just the typical holiday's effect of reminding me of home, family, and friends I don't have.
Day 5648 - 12/18 - Library Monday
Today will be the first of several weeks at the library during the school break. I'll peek in over at school in the morning, because I expect I'll probably be able to have my Monday and Thursday showers while teachers stick around for final grading and other things.
Day 5649 - 12/19 - Unknown library Tuesday
Today I really don't know what to expect being the first Tuesday of my break. I have nothing that I need to do, nor anything special planned. Hopefully it will be a nice break.
Week 808
Day 5650 - 12/20 - Ok, but chilly
Today things were ok, but I am a bit chilly. I think my lunch meat wasn't great though, as it upset my tummy a bit. I had some mixed cheese yesterday and it kind of wrecked me. I'm beginning to wonder if I have much bigger issues with cheddar than mozzarella. I'm having a hard time figuring out just what does or does not wreck me. It almost seems like anything that's not cooked usually does lately.
I guess today wasn't too bad.
Day 5651 - 12/21 - Back pain
Today there really isn't anything of note save for some back pain. I guess it's more just a general stiffness and cramping when I get up, or hold a bent position for too long, so it's not too bad. I really need to try to get back to stretching a few times a week. I was starting to a few months ago, but now it's so cold all the time I basically don't get a chance.
As always, all I can do is try to hang on until better days.
Day 5652 - 12/22 - Maybe intolerant
Today my tummy feels pretty wrecked by my food. I am really beginning to wonder if I do have the red meat intolerance I read about, or at least have it with non-cooked food. Today I had a salami and cheese combo pack; something I've had probably 100 times before, but at a seemingly more accelerating pace these past 2-3 years my tummy is getting more and more upset when I have it. I didn't even finish all of it, just 75% because of how I felt.
I guess other than that the day was ok. Nothing really special. Though it did feel decidedly unspecial for near Xmas time. I'm seeing almost no lights when driving around at night. And when in shops I don't hear special music. And of course with my life what it is, I have nothing to celebrate on my own. Any traditions I would normally consider doing are ones I can't do.
But I guess I made it through the day ok. And that has to be enough for now.
Day 5653 - 12/23 - Soft again
Today I am soft again. School was still closed, so I did a quick shave in a bathroom outside of the library at a community building. It's been locked lately, but apparently it's supposed to still be open on weekends. I'll check and hope school is open next week for at least one full shower and shave, but I may not get another shave for a week, which is the worst since with my eczema I can only go about 3 days before things start to get itchy.
I guess today was ok, but as usual for the holiday times I felt pretty sad and didn't want to play much. Mostly I just watched shows, but it was ok.
Day 5654 - 12/24 - Cramped neck
Today my neck is very badly cramped. I don't know what is going on. Probably just stress or worry, but I can't turn it more than about half of normal.
I guess today was pretty ok. There weren't many at the library so things were pretty quiet and calm.
Day 5655 - 12/25 - Xmas outside
Today will probably be pretty sad. It's another Xmas that I'll be outside. I hope it's not too cold. In years past it's been cold to the point of shivering. But Sunday was a bit warmer than it's been lately and wasn't at all too cold when I left the library, so hopefully it will be tolerable.
I don't know what to expect for today. There is really only one person who hasn't sent any surprise, so I really don't expect any surprises. All I can really hope for is that it's not too cold, I have a solid and stable connection for a few hours, and whatever I eat doesn't end badly.
Day 5656 - 12/26 - Hopefully ok Tuesday
Today hopefully will be normal and fine. The library is open, so it will just be the one day outside, then back to homeless normal.
Hopefully I can continue to hang on until better days.
