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Epic Fail: The Journal of a Homeless Gamer
Book 16: Different Paths

This is my journal I wrote during the time I was homeless. It is broken up by week for easier reading. Feel free to read it on the web or download the complete .pdf version and print it for reading offline.

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Week 809

Day 5657 - 12/27 - Suddenly pain

Today seemed ok. I felt a bit tired and sad, but that isn't really unusual. I did have a really weird cramping in my back and neck though that kind of limited my movement. I could basically only rotate my neck left or right maybe half way before it got too painful. I guess overall the day was ok and I played and watched a few shows, so I tried to be as restful as I could. I'm a bit congested in my lungs, have been for like a month, so that seems crazy that isn't going away. But I guess I hung on ok.

Day 5658 - 12/28 - Best vision day

Today my vision was super good. I think it's mostly been between good and the worst. And I may only be noticing today is really good due to it being the worst a day or two ago.

I guess today was ok. I played and had fun, but not entirely what I wanted. I've been wanting to play my MMO more lately, as I still have the most recent expansion to do, but whenever it's near the holidays being in my MMO makes me feel extra sad, so I tend to not play it much during those times.

Overall things were mostly ok and not very unusual today. Though there was a super cute girl outside reading on a bench before the library opened. She made me smiley when I looked at her, so I didn't look at her too much. But I think she was smiling too when she saw I was. She was almost certainly too young for me to say hi and stuff too, so I didn't, and I did see her in the library later. So if we were meant to meet maybe I'll see her again and she will say hi.

Day 5659 - 12/29 - Ate half

Today was pretty calm, except for a few hours where there was someone who sounded like he was being strangled to death by a runny nose. He was sniffling and gasping for breath. I really hope he didn't give me some kind of cold. He didn't sneeze or cough ever, so I hope it was just allergies. But sheesh, if you are sniffling that much and being strangled by your snot go to the store and spend $10 to get some nose spray. That would have cleared it up in like 2 minutes. Why spend hours suffering and gasping if you can just take an easy medicine.

I ate half of the salami and cheese pack I got today. Maybe that is a key to a less upset tummy. Though the bits are very small, maybe the size of a finger each, so with a pack being 4 salami and 4 cheese, that isn't much. And until pretty recently I've had no problem, but either I wasn't hungry today, or getting bread and chips to eat with it is a good way to lessen the meat and cheese intake and feeling better overall. At least on non-school days when I am forced to eat ready to eat food. I guess only time will tell if smaller portions like that really helps or not.

Day 5660 - 12/30 - Rude chatterbox

Today was pretty good, but around noon some late teen kids came and sat across from me. The one directly across kept putting his legs into my area. I was getting tempted to yell at him. The tables are probably 5' across, and he was taking 75% of the under area at times, which is super rude. And for the last 45 minutes or so that I was there they were constantly talking. They were quiet enough I really couldn't complain, but they were loud enough I really couldn't focus at all on my show. I held it together long enough to not yell, but I did leave probably 15 minutes early so I wouldn't have to tolerate it anymore. I'd never seen them before, so hopefully I never do again.

I guess the day was ok other than that. It rained all last night. Today was mostly clear, but for a few hours it was completely pouring.

Day 5661 - 12/31 - Rude kids, again

Today those two rude kids showed up again. I gave him like 3 kicks, which was a time period that lasted less than 45 minutes, then I was like, 'Dude, this is the middle of the table here. You can't put your feet past that because you are kicking me.' Even after saying that he still probably bumped into me once per hour. If they come back again I may just tell him to sit on the other side so he doesn't kick me because that's really rude.

He was eating in a really annoying way for like an hour as well. He had some crackers, and instead of taking a bite and holding the rest in his hand he'd bite part, and then let the rest flap around held by his lips while he munched that part into smaller bits. And each one was like 3 total bites, so it was flapping there outside of his mouth most of the time. It's like he was 5-years-old or something. For like an hour. Seriously?

I guess the other half of my day where they weren't around was ok. But those kids kind of really put a damper on things.

Day 5662 - 1/1/24 - Hopefully ok outside

Today hopefully would be an ok day outside. It's been not too cold, so hopefully I will be ok. The tent person was back on Sunday, so they will upset me if they are blocking the only real plug when I get there. I can't believe they have effectively been living in a tent along the wall of the city hall building for a month or longer. That is seriously mindboggling.

All I can do is hope for the best.

Day 5663 - 1/2 - Hopefully regular Tuesday

Today will hopefully be a regular Tuesday. Maybe I can even get a shower in the morning over at school. Often in the past they are partly open this week for registration and a few hours for the book store. I guess we'll see.

Hopefully I can hang on ok. And hopefully this year things can be better.

Week 810

Day 5664 - 1/3 - Sensitive tummy

Today my tummy has been pretty sensitive. I again had only half of the salami and cheese pack, but my tummy still got upset. Other than that the day was pretty good. Though there was this guy who was probably over 40 sitting across from me most of the day who was sniffling the entire time. It's like was this another 5-year-old? Why does he not know how to blow his nose or get nose spray or decongestant? It's not that difficult.

But I had fun with my games, watched some shows, and tried to enjoy what was left of my time off from school. Though with only two classes, one of which is whenever online, it likely will not be a tough quarter.

Day 5665 - 1/4 - Mister sniffles, again

Today the sniffling guy was back. It's like seriously? Get some decongestant and blow your nose. Use some nose spray. It's not that hard.

I guess today wasn't that bad other than that. I played and had fun but my tummy was pretty upset again. Hopefully things will be better tomorrow.

Day 5666 - 1/5 - Peeing

Today really wasn't unusual except for peeing like twice as much as normal. I'm not sure what is up with that since I drank about 75% of normal, and it was all of the normal drinks. I guess I'm carrying extra water all the time, so it was probably just dropping that. I did also sneeze every couple of hours, so maybe I have some kind of cold? I'm not sure what was going on with that today.

Day 5667 - 1/6 - Another lost pair

Today I had to put in another new pair of contacts after the last only lasted about 3 weeks. Granted these are weekly, so that is longer than they were designed for, but recently I've been able to keep them and they have been good for up to 2 months. A year supply is about $80 at that rate. If they continue this trend of lasting only about one month then that will greatly increase my cost, doubling it to $160, possibly more.

The day was pretty good other than that. It poured rain last night, then stopped for most of the day, then poured super hard for 2 hours today, and now it is just a heavy mist. But I had fun with my games and shows and that is about all I can hope for these days.

Day 5668 - 1/7 - 4 am

Today started out pretty lame. I had a very vivid dream; not actually a bad one, which is rare. But after the dream my body just kind of fully woke up. It couldn't have been much later than about 4 am though. I tried and tried to get back to sleep, but I just couldn't for about 1.5 hours. I don't feel really bad because of it, but I am running on less sleep than I otherwise would be.

Day 5669 - 1/8 - Maybe first school day

Today is maybe the first day of this quarter. I'm actually not sure if it will be because the class that's online that I thought was an anytime one has a mandatory online live video meeting on Thursday just after noon. So I don't know if I have to do the class work after that, or if it will be posted to do anytime on Monday like I thought it would be. Only time will tell.

Day 5670 - 1/9 - Class

Today I will have my first class meeting for my in person Tuesday class. Hopefully it will be pretty fun, but I don't know what to expect. It's doing some animation stuff, so it might be so basic it's super boring for me. And it's time is kind of bad, as it ends at 12:30, which is kind of the busiest time in the cafeteria, so it may be tough to get a good seat. My hope is that because it's winter and super cold people will just prefer to not be on campus and it will be pretty empty. All I can do is hope for the best.

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