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Epic Fail: The Journal of a Homeless Gamer
Book 16: Different Paths

This is my journal I wrote during the time I was homeless. It is broken up by week for easier reading. Feel free to read it on the web or download the complete .pdf version and print it for reading offline.

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Week 833

Day 5825 - 6/12 - Stupid noises

Today I was bothered by stupid noises. Some lady I've never seen before sat across from me with her large bag of junk and set up a bunch of junk paper and two laptops. One of them was doing some alert beep a few times an hour. I could barely hold it together. If she sits at my table again before she sits down I'll say I'm sound sensitive and to mute that and not crunch food for hours on end. (She literally ate carrots and nuts for like 2 hours.)

Then in the afternoon there was some guy where the probably dead homeless vet used to always sit tapping his foot for something like an hour.

It's still pretty warm but not too bad, and I was actually slightly warmer in the library. I only had a single hoodie layer on. At least now I am settled in the car and things should be quiet and calm.

Day 5826 - 6/13 - Pretty tired

Today was a pretty fun class. I think I have a good start on the homework, so we'll see how I feel about it as it progresses. My library time was ok too. But I feel so very tired. And at this point I feel like I will flop over asleep.

Day 5827 - 6/14 - Feeling sad and broken

Today I feel pretty sad and broken. I have lost a lot of sleep due to various animals waking me up at various times during the night. And for a couple of days now my back has really been killing me. I had a pretty difficult time every time I got up from my seat today. So, in general, due to being overly tired and in a fair amount of pain I've been pretty sad today. Hopefully I can get some sleep and be feeling better soon.

Day 5828 - 6/15 - Big goal

Today I actually started and finished a big important goal I never thought I'd get a chance to do in my shooter. It requires 2 people and most don't want to group with someone like me who can't do voice chat. But someone super nice responded and did the very important thing with me. And maybe more importantly the special reward is now unlocked and it can drop ranomly when I'm doing regular things in a specific area.

Outside of that I'm still pretty exhausted from losing some sleep. I'm still in a fair bit of discomfort and pain from my back cramping up or whatever hurt it lately. So I'm continuing to try my best to stay restful and recover.

Day 5829 - 6/16 - Tired, but quiet and calm

Today was super quiet and calm at the library. I would guess because of dad's day. I lost more sleep so I'm pretty tired. My back is recovering from the pain, which isn't too bad now, but it is still pretty stiff.

Not really anything different today, just an average sleepy homeless day in general.

Day 5830 - 6/17 - Probably quiet Monday

Today will probably be pretty quiet. I think kids are out of lower schools now, which in general means most of them will just be visiting quickly if they come by at all, so I expect a pretty quiet day.

Day 5831 - 6/18 - Mystery Tuesday

Today I don't know what to expect. It will likely just be a pretty regular day. We are still mostly missing summer weather. While it's been fair the past few days it's been pretty breezy, making it a bit chilly overall. But I don't know what else to expect for the day.

Week 833

Day 5832 - 6/19 - Surprise kitty

Today was an outside day because of the weird holiday. It mostly was pretty good. I was warm enough, and the connection stayed stable and solid for all of the things I wanted to do. There was even a short surprise visit from a patched colored kitty, though sadly they didn't come over for me to pet. I guess all in all today was better than I expected it to be.

Day 5833 - 6/20 - Chilly and breezy

Today was chilly and breezy, kind of like fall weather more than summer. It's weird because there was a heat warning showing on the weather, but I don't think I ever saw it get above 75F.

Class was fun, but very short. It's the last regular week, so the professor wanted to give people extra lab time. Since I can do all of the project stuff on my own laptop I just left at that part and I'll spend my forced offline time doing the project instead of time I could otherwise be online.

I guess I'm feeling pretty sad. Lately I've been feeling like I miss a lot of regular life things. And today I felt like I might fall over and start uncontrollably crying. I don't think anything new is happening, just the weight of all my sad homeless things are too much right now.

Day 5834 - 6/21 - Lots of pee

Today and last night I seem to be peeing a lot. I can't measure it really, but it feels like almost twice as much as I'm drinking. It's like my body is purging water weight for some reason. I have been sneezing and sniffling like crazy, but it seems like that is most likely allergies than some kind of cold or illness.

I'm still pretty sneezy, so even though I had fun today I don't remember much. And as always I was freezing in the library. I'll never understand why they keep it so cold.

Day 5835 - 6/22 - Not soloable

Today I decided to try for a special thing in my shooter that is not soloable. At first the social page I looked for others to get help had no responses, but after a bit someone sent word they would help. I guess it took quite a bit longer than I expected. I started around 1 and normally I stop playing for the night around 3, but I never checked the time while we were playing. When we stopped and had finished it was just after 4. So that took like twice as long as I expected it would have. It's fine though, as I now have the special thing.

So the day passed pretty quickly overall. By the time I finished up in the game doing left over things and got settled in for dinner and show watching I had just enough time for a single show and a little extra to rest before leaving for the night.

I guess it's warming up again. It didn't seem as chilly as it has been. I still don't see why we have a heat warning, as I'd guess it's currently only in the mid to high 70s. It's nice that it's getting warm again, though the library is still freezing.

Day 5836 - 6/23 - A bit warm outside

Today I guess it got a bit warm outside. At one point in the early afternoon I saw it was showing 88F. Though now I'd be surprised if it were much over the mid 70s.

I guess today was pretty regular. I found out I was not getting a reward that I had been looking for in my MMO because the tip to get it was effectively wrong, so that will take a while to get now that I know how (due to limited drop per day). I had fun in my shooter too and got some progress, though I guess not as much as I'd have hoped.

Tonight I'll try an finish my stuff for my final. I had some stuff to get ready for it now and then there is a lot of copy, paste, move, repeat, for the bulk of it, so we'll see how time consuming that turns out to be. If not, I should be able to finish tomorrow without issue.

Day 5837 - 6/24 - Hopefully finished Monday

Today I will, or have already, finished the stuff for my final. After that it will really just be starting my summer. And it may be the start of a very long cycle of days at the library. I still don't know if there are any classes I can continue to take at school to keep student loans off my back. But I guess, as they say, that is a problem for future me to worry about in a couple of months when I can sign up for things.

Day 5838 - 6/25 - Probably restful Tuesday

Today hopefully will be restful. Hopefully I finished my school project. And hopefully the library will be quiet and calm since it is usually pretty empty during the week. And hopefully I can continue to hang on ok.

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