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Welcome to rabb1t's web space
status: homeless; have gaming laptop, have car, unemployed

This is my blog page; some of my ramblings will be here. Feel free to bookmark whichever page you would visit most. The most important PC tech ramblings will appear on my PC page, but there may be a more in depth story here in my blog.


December 12, '17 - Tuesday - Epic Fail book 10 (week 493) - Link
The next week of Epic Fail year 10 is up.

I get dad's holiday money and it's barely enough to cover the most important bill. While that's a relief that means without help I have no clue how I'll pay for the overdue car payment, or other things like next quarter at school (to keep financial aid at bay.)

December 9, '17 - Saturday - rabb1t's ramblings podcast 296: The Curse and Kobolds - Link
In this podcast I talk about the Destiny 2 expansion Curse of Osiris. There's not much there, about 4 hours to get through the main campaign, but a lot of new items have been added, as well as quest-like weapon unlocks. Hearthstone's Kobolds and Catacombs expansion has also come out, and I got a chance to peek at that, so I discuss the new dungeon mode a little bit.
December 5, '17 - Tuesday - Epic Fail book 10 (week 492) - Link
The next week of Epic Fail year 10 is up.

As bills come due, and some overdue, and Xmas approaches my mind becomes filled with thoughts of failure, loneliness, loss, and the feeling that help may not come and very soon I may lose what little is left.

November 28, '17 - Tuesday - Epic Fail book 10 (week 491) - Link
The next week of Epic Fail year 10 is up.

I am panicking over bills that I can't afford. While I can make it by if I get help from dad and maybe some donations, it is difficult to focus on the possibility things will be ok, since I have no guarantee those will happen.

November 25, '17 - Saturday - rabb1t's ramblings podcast 295: Turkey update - Link
In this podcast I don't have anything new, so I just give a quick life update and wish people a happy turkey day.
November 21, '17 - Tuesday - Epic Fail book 10 (week 490) - Link
The next week of Epic Fail year 10 is up.

The weather turns towards winter, and so people do winter things, reminding me of what I'm missing in life. More and more bill type things seem to keep popping up, putting each more out of reach with each new thing.

November 14, '17 - Tuesday - Epic Fail book 10 (week 489) - Link
The next week of Epic Fail year 10 is up.

This week there are many sad times, and winter's cold reminds me of many things I don't have. But I have fun with my games, and I try to hang on.

November 11, '17 - Saturday - rabb1t's ramblings podcast 294: Expanded Destiny - Link
In this podcast I talk about the first 50 hours played in Destiny 2; I talk about the things I like and I'm doing most often. And I talk about what's new and different since the first game.
November 7, '17 - Tuesday - Epic Fail book 10 (week 488) - Link
The next week of Epic Fail year 10 is up.

This week there seem to be many reminders of all my upcoming sad bills, and that I am not in a home and can't control my environment. But I try to have fun with my new game and hang on.

October 31, '17 - Tuesday - Epic Fail book 10 (week 487) - Link
The next week of Epic Fail year 10 is up.

This week there is a big scare with my laptop. Hopefully this is an issue with the plug and my workaround continues to keep working. With my new game I can keep sufficiently distracted, and emotionally this week I feel ok, though there are still many worries and fears ever-present in the back of my mind.

October 7, '17 - Saturday - rabb1t's ramblings podcast 293: Into the black - Link
In this podcast I talk about the first 12-15 hours played in Destiny 2; my journey from level 1-20. It feels both new and old, in that the spirit of the original game is retained, yet the levels are much larger, have much more going on, and there's a ton more to do. I also talk about a mobile app that I found just in time for Halloween; Into the Dead 2.
October 24, '17 - Tuesday - Epic Fail book 10 (week 486) - Link
The next week of Epic Fail year 10 is up.

Times are still tough and I struggle to stay ok feeling. A few minor panic attacks happen, and I may be sick, but enough donations come that the November car insurance payment is done.

October 17, '17 - Tuesday - Epic Fail book 10 (week 485) - Link
The next week of Epic Fail year 10 is up.

I feel more and more alone, and looking beyond today to a better tomorrow is becoming increasingly difficult.

October 10, '17 - Tuesday - Epic Fail book 10 (week 484) - Link
The next week of Epic Fail year 10 is up.

As the homeless days continue I feel more and more like I am forgetting me. And fear of death continues to loom over me in the back of my mind.

October 7, '17 - Saturday - rabb1t's ramblings podcast 292: Back to the beginning - Link
In this podcast I don't have a lot new to talk about, so I discuss some upcoming things, and I mention an iPad game I've been playing which was one of the first ever I got.
October 3, '17 - Tuesday - Epic Fail book 10 (week 483) - Link
The next week of Epic Fail year 10 is up.

I can't stop worrying, as the first car insurance payment is now past due. There is no money. On top of that gas is nearly out, my medicines are running out and there is no money for an appointment to get them refilled. Fear and panic are constant.

September 26, '17 - Tuesday - Epic Fail book 10 (week 482) - Link
The next week of Epic Fail year 10 is up.

In the early part of the week it seems my cold gets a bit worse. And things rapidly seem bleak as time runs out before an insurance payment is due.

September 19, '17 - Tuesday - Epic Fail book 10 (week 481) - Link
The next week of Epic Fail year 10 is up.

I calm down from my recent panic and fear of death, but every day I seem to be reminded more and more about costs coming up very very soon with no way to pay for them.

September 16, '17 - Saturday - rabb1t's ramblings podcast 291: Finishing all the things - Link
In this podcast I have some thoughts about the Morrowind expansion for Elder Scrolls Online, and a few closing thoughts for XCOM 2: War of the Chosen.
September 12, '17 - Tuesday - Epic Fail book 10 (week 480) - Link
The next week of Epic Fail year 10 is up.

Even though the week passes without issue, it seems every day I run into things that remind me my life is not normal, and nothing I do is done like other people do.

September 5, '17 - Tuesday - Epic Fail book 10 (week 479) - Link
The next week of Epic Fail year 10 is up.

Heat and the holiday disrupt the normal homeless life. The brain melts and doesn't function well, but the time passes ok.

September 2, '17 - Saturday - rabb1t's ramblings podcast 290: Shoot all the aliens - Link
In this podcast I ramble a bit about the Destiny 2 beta for PC. And I talk quite a bit about the changes and new features in XCOM 2's expansion War of the Chosen. And there are a few brief thoughts on Warden for Elder Scrolls Online in the close.
August 29, '17 - Tuesday - Epic Fail book 10 (week 478) - Link
The next week of Epic Fail year 10 is up.

The time with new birthday things cheers me greatly. And although sad things are always on the back of my mind, things seem a bit better, at least for the moment.

August 22, '17 - Tuesday - Epic Fail book 10 (week 477) - Link
The next week of Epic Fail year 10 is up.

This week my birthday comes and goes. There are happy surprises and the pain of the week before is forgotten. There are monies for nice things, a few things that need to be done, and just a bit for things to come.

August 19, '17 - Saturday - rabb1t's ramblings podcast 289: Coming soon - Link
In this podcast I ramble a bit more about nothing. I ramble about XCOM 2 and the Destinly 2 PC beta, both coming up next week, so I'll have those to talk about next week. And give a sad life update.
August 15, '17 - Tuesday - Epic Fail book 10 (week 476) - Link
The next week of Epic Fail year 10 is up.

In this week I am in a lot of physical pain due to some tooth issues, as well as emotional pain from reminders of a normal life I don't have.

August 8, '17 - Tuesday - Epic Fail book 10 (week 475) - Link
The next week of Epic Fail year 10 is up.

In this week I try not to worry about the bills ahead, but they keep coming back to the front of my mind, along with thoughts of what is missing in my life. I try to look at just the happy things and my upcoming birthday, but it is difficult.

August 5, '17 - Saturday - rabb1t's ramblings podcast 288: Little about nothing - Link
In this podcast I ramble a bit about nothing. There's nothing new going on, and not much new for the news. So there is a bit of a life update, which is about the same.
August 1, '17 - Tuesday - Epic Fail book 10 (week 474) - Link
The next week of Epic Fail year 10 is up.

In this week I have a few panic attacks and fear of death, so I have to try and focus on distraction. But things seem to be looking up emotionally overall, as I get news there is a beta for the game I want to get in October coming the week after my birthday. So I'll get a chance to test my system, and in better news the minimums are much lower than the recent games I struggled with, so it should be very playable. And I saw a very beautiful and attractive girl at the library, which considerably lifted my spirits, as only a few girls have made me smiley and silly feeling just being there. So it's good to know my heart is not too old or broken to feel that again.

July 25, '17 - Tuesday - Epic Fail book 10 (week 473) - Link
The next week of Epic Fail year 10 is up.

Things are ok for the moment, but as gas runs out again, things become more sad and I begin to worry again.

July 22, '17 - Saturday - rabb1t's ramblings podcast 287: Rambling on why - Link
In this podcast I ramble a bit about why I am playing Secret World Legends despite its shortcomings, and ponder on if I should stop or not. And I ramble about the asshats in Heroes of the Storm, how I don't like PvP, and ramble about why I may still be playing. In the second section I am sad about how two new shows I've been watching, Killjoys and Blood Drive, are behind pay walls.
July 18, '17 - Tuesday - Epic Fail book 10 (week 472) - Link
The next week of Epic Fail year 10 is up.

The week is extra hard as I watch gas slowly dwindle away to nothing, and am forced to deal with changes in my routine after the (hopefully temporary) loss of being able to help my professor with film classes.

July 11, '17 - Tuesday - Epic Fail book 10 (week 471) - Link
The next week of Epic Fail year 10 is up.

The registration is paid and that is no longer a worry. But with everyone moving on in life as the school year comes to a close for most I feel sad reflecting upon my own life, as it feels like it is either unmoving or continuing to slowly fall apart around me as time wears down the few things I do have left.

July 8, '17 - Saturday - rabb1t's ramblings podcast 286: Not so Secret World Legends - Link
In this podcast I discuss my top 5 points about the re-launch of The Secret World as the new free to play version Secret World Legends. There are good and bad points about the game, most of which I suspect are unchanged from the original launch. It's a solid free to play offering, horribly plagued by a terrible cash shop pricing structure.
July 4, '17 - Tuesday - Epic Fail book 10 (week 470) - Link
The next week of Epic Fail year 9 and start of year 10 is up.

Year 9 comes to a close, and Year 10 begins, almost without my even noticing. Things close as they do every day, and this year seemingly nothing comes to mind to reflect upon for the close or open of the years. Maybe there have been too many now.


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